Look, I'm a little bit buzzed (the booze was free...) right now and maybe these thoughts aren't completely coherent, but I think I should write them down before I regain my inhibitions. I'm sorry that I'm acting the way I am. I don't know why I do it. I mean I do, because it feels like you've hurt me, but I don't like the way I've acted, its childish, but what can I say? I'm selfish and jealous. I would never act say these things sober (probably) because I am probably too reserved and shy, but honestly, it makes me jealous. I am an only child after all. I know its unfair but I feel like its unfair to me that you'd want to kiss other people and when I try anything at all you tell me "that'll make it harder" (no pun intended... well not initially, but it was pretty funny when I realized what I had said the other night about harder...). I can't stand that you say want to see me as much as possible but nothing else. Anyways, I'm sorry that I'm acting the way that I am and I hope you know that its because I care too much, not because I don't care, even though thats what I say aloud, sober.