Where does one draw the line? I'm still young right? Should I even be worried about that? Why do I care so much about what other people think? Why do I have to judge my own coolness or happiness or anything about myself based on what other people think of me? Should I take a more permanent job doing something I have no interest in doing and don't particularly enjoy now simply because it pays more and appears to be more successful than the job I enjoy? If I want to wear a denim jacket that is slightly too tight, shouldn't I just wear it? I'm quite proud I only paid $15 for it or whatever I paid even if it is a bit small. But I also don't want to look like a moron. Who cares if it was (probably) once a girl's jacket?

At least the last few weeks have been fun. Six Flags was pretty exciting. I'm the master at carnival games, now when I don't even want the prizes any more, I win them with ease. What is that? As a kid I always wanted to play, but I could only spend like $5 and I hardly ever ever won but now that I have more money to spend and I can win with some semblance of skill, I don't want the prizes? Am I that detached from my childhood? Nah, they were just lousy prizes. Also, X is still the best ride, ever, ever ever. That was my first time on Tatsu, however, and I can remember the first time I rode Viper, Goliath and X and each inaugural trip I rode those I was SOOO nervous. Even X, which was only a few years ago. I just played off my shaking as being very cold (which it was that year). But this was the first time that I wasn't nervous about riding a new coaster. So I'm glad that I'm brave now, but on the other hand, it takes away from the fun I think.

Getting paid more than $10 or so an hour is a nice new change. Although I think the cubicle life is not for me. Not all offices are like The Office. There was no Pam and I'm no Jim. Boo. I do enjoy wearing nice clothes for a change, but I've nearly run out of semi-formal outfits to wear so this job cannot continue without having to buy at least a few more dress shirts.

Flashback has indeed been very exciting. The first few weeks felt like a let down because I don't think I was participating enough. I think I was expecting something like the first few weeks of dorm life where everybody is friendly because its a new experience for everyone. But in this case, its just a new situation for me and a lot of people already know the routine, so to speak. But I think I've picked it up quickly. I can even dance a little bit now!

I've also learned about the awesomeness that are Star Wars Valentines cards so thats a plus too.

Zero 7 - Pageant of the Bizarre