I've had a lot of talk lately about deep important things and I can't figure it all out. I was watching Night at the Museum and in the movie, during the night, all of the exhibits in the Natural History Museum come to life. They all do the things they did in real life. Like cavemen drew cave drawings and tried to create fire. Sacagawea is searching, but helping Lewis and Clark. Romans are trying to expand the empire and the western exhibit, led by Owen Wilson, are trying to build a railroad. Manifest Destiny and all. So the two different exhibits are fighting each other for expansion territory. Anyways, Ben Stiller solves all of the problems by unifying everybody. The Romans no longer fight the western guys because they have to help Ben Stiller save the movie and by doing this as a group they realize they don't need to fight each other any more and that both the Romans and the western guys are similar and then they become friends.

Getting along with your neighbors is all fine and dandy, its just that when Ben Stiller starts solving all of the museum's problems, like the Romans and whatever no longer had a purpose for existing. At one point in the movie, Ben Stiller asks why the two keep fighting and they say thats what they do, basically. So when Ben Stiller solves their problem, it makes me wonder, what do they do now? I mean yes, at the end of the movie they drive a miniature sports car together and its cute and fun because they're miniature too, but really, what do they do now?

I'm feeling that way. I don't feel like I have a purpose in life and because of that I am constantly thinking about things like this. Like if the United States were at war (a real war), like during World War II, God forbid, I think I would feel like I have a purpose. When I watch movies about World War II or read books about it, the people of that era talk about how their days revolved around the war effort, even here at home in the States. I just don't feel as though there is a purpose in my life. I don't mean in the existential sense, like what is the meaning of life, but rather, I don't even have a focus in my life for the week or the month. Telling myself that I am going to learn how to skateboard, yeah, its something that I want to do, but not in the way that I really want. I think having such an easy life, where almost everything is provided for me makes me a lousy person. If my family were poorer or something I think I would be forced to make decisions. I suck at expressing my feelings.

Band of Horses - The End's Not Near