I think its time that I started writing for myself again. This MySpace phenomenon is ruining my life, both literally and in my mind as well. First, on Tuesday, which is street sweeping day on my side of the street, every week for the last 22 years of my life, I got a ticket. I knew that the street sweepers were coming yet I left my car parked out front while I was commenting on peoples' MySpace when I could've just left my house on time and avoided a $39 parking ticket. But thats not what really upsets me.

MySpace has taken my life over. When I come home I have to check my email, which will tell me whether or not somebody has left me a comment. I feel slightly sad when I haven't received one for an entire day, but whats worse is when you've left somebody a comment, and you don't receive a reply and you know they've been online because you're creepy like that and you checked their MySpace and they responded to some other comment on their page because you checked your friend's friend's page. How paranoid and insecure is that? I've never had such a swing in emotions as the one that MySpace has sent me on. Its like I need constant reaffirmation of my friendship with everybody that I know. I go to other peoples' pages in good faith to leave them a friendly comment or ask them a question and when they don't respond you ask yourself, were they too busy to respond? Or do they not care enough even though I took time out my day to leave them a comment in the hopes of brightening up their day? Or am I just overthinking things and my life wasn't nearly this complicated before MySpace? And then about a week ago I was deseperate for comments. I was actively complaining, on the phone, to a friend that nobody had commented on my page. I had left a comment for a good friend of mine that I thought for sure they'd comment me back and they didn't. I thought my life was over. But the worst part of this is that I know the person who didn't comment me back is my friend no matter what and I was ON THE PHONE with another friend so its not like it was my only friend in the world. I hate MySpace and yet I can't live without it.

I'd like to welcome myself back to the world of blogging and journal writing. Hurray for me.

Angels and Airwaves - Start the Machine