Have the good times come to an end? Does graduation from high school signal the end of the good times? Or at least getting near the end? Sure, college is probably tons of fun, but, after that what is there? Work work work work kid work work work kid retire? Clearly I'm quite biased in this view of life because all I know is high school and nothing else. But it seems that when people think back on their lives, what do they consider the "good ol'"? College and high school right? So what high school graduation is telling me is that I've got 4 maybe 6 (if I do master's) ahead of me and then its all over?

I was watching Leno a few nights ago and they have this thing called "JayWalking" where they ask people on the streets assorted questions and this week it was "If you could have any ONE super power what would it be?" And I was thinking about this and people would say things like "mind reading" and "super strength" or an ocassional "x-ray vision." However, I would never want those things. Well not that I wouldn't want those things, I'd take pretty much any super-power, but if I had a choice, I would take the power of mind control. I know, it seems very evil, and you know what? It is an evil ability, but its one I'd want. I would be able to do all sorts of things. Thats what I secretly would want, but if I were to have one to better man-kind, it would be something like super-strength or the ability to generate crops out of my ass or something. Okay, maybe not my ass, I wouldn't eat anything off my ass, but... you get the idea.

But what my point was, is that there was a guy on the show who said he'd like to be able to stop time and just fuck with people... well I wasn't quite that ingeneous but I was able to think further down the line on that, and if I were really to want a power it'd be able to control time, you know, turn it back etc. Or at least the ability to time travel which is equally powerful. First I thought of that power thinking, I could go back in time and find out where man came from... Big Bang? Or did we take 6 days and some guy took the 7th day off to make us? I'd do stuff like that. But once all that scientific study was done, I'd want to go back and be able to relive my high school experiences as well as the rest of my childhood, selfish I know. I realize that there are tons of paradoxes and loopholes in time travel that its not even funny... but lets just say anything I do cannot affect the timeline or whatever just to cover all the bases. Anyone else got any super power ideas? You can email me w/ that gigantic envelope to the left <------ over there. That'd be the first one I ever got in regards to my blogger! C'mon guys, be the first!

The Offspring - The Kids Aren't Alright

Ahh yes, Blogspot it back to its original form. Everything seems to be working now. Over the last few days I've been signing a few yearbooks and its been much easier than I expected. I expected to be very emotional at school, with today being our last normal day of classes and all, but not so! I seriously thought I would at least feel something, but it was just a "blah" experience for me. Anyways, my mom is getting pissed, can't even write in my own lousy journal thing. She just doesn't understand. Oh well. I'll write more when my parents are long gone... blah.

Juvenile - Ha

Graduation inches closer. Or perhaps, more like leaps.

I get my cap and gown tomorrow. I'm starting to feel nervous about this whole thing. I don't know why. I shouldn't. But its probably because I'm afraid of change. I'm now wondering about things in the future, like, where will everyone I know now, be in 5 years? 10? I wonder the same things that everyone else probably wonders, what is going to happen to us. I wonder, will I be some hobo on the street? Or will I be a sucessful whatever I am? Will my friends, aquaintances, everyone in my senior class, and even in the junior class... where will they be? I suppose this is all part of growing up, but I don't know if I want to see where I'll be in 5 years.

Backstreet Boys - Show Me The Meaning

Once again, I've not neglected to post in 3 days. Damn, I'm getting lazy. I haven't been to the gym in like a week either. But then again I've also been trying to catch up in my classes in school and working late on projects/essays and I've got another late night coming up tomorrow no doubt. My English project is due Tuesday, the presentation anyways, and I don't know anything about my topic, much less have any ideas as to how to go about this presentation. Ah well.

Okay, I'll for sure write my Blogger at least 4 times a week now. If I don't, well then damn me. If I can't even put my own thoughts down on paper, I'm lazy as hell.

Theres less than 2 weeks till my graduation! And just like I said in the beginning of the year, I don't think the whole senior thing has set in yet. But I'm sure the day-of I'll feel a little more than nostalgic.

Yearbook was released to seniors on Friday. General reactions have been good, except for a slight problem regarding the ads... but thats been pretty much resolved.

I still can't remember what was so important from last time that I wanted to write. Dammit.

Joe f/ Mystikal - Stutter (remix)

Finally, I have time to post. So here's more from my "craaaaazy mind" and more about my boring life.

Well, I watched Pearl Harbor and despite what lots of people have been saying, its not a bad movie. I won't say its great, but I enjoyed it more than Titanic at least. The battle scenes were really good! But thats not why I'm writing. After watching Pearl Harbor I went to the Pearl Harbor linked earlier and watched the little multimedia clips they have there, and set a picture of Kate Beckinsale as my background too :) Anyways, they have these clips of Pearl Harbor survivors there talking and I watched a few of those, and along with the movie, I don't know what it is, but I feel extremely patriotic.

And its not just feeling patriotic either, I feel like I need to join the army and fight. Maybe its all just a big subliminal message thing for people to join the army. But I think its more for me. I've been alive for what? 17 years? Nearing 18 now, and what do I have to show for it? Just a high school diploma that I haven't even received yet... I feel as though I need to serve something greater than myself, you know? And I don't want to hear any of this religion crap, not that I hear all that much about my Blogger from anyone, email or otherwise, but yeah... Thats a completely different debate. Its like this: I want to know I've made a difference. Like I don't want to go through life and be some guy working at a 9-5 deskjob doing a lot of nothing. I'm not saying that theres anything wrong with that, its a respectable job, but I don't think I could stand it. Its sort of like at the end of Saving Private Ryan when Private Ryan is looking at Tom Hanks' characters grave and he says to his wife "Tell me I have led a good life."

Faith Hill - There You'll Be Thats the Pearl Harbor theme song by the way. At first I didn't think too much of it, but I like it more and more now that I listen to it.