AUGH! I've been too busy doing stuff to write something, but I do have something to write! 3 AM and I just finished my senior will... ah well.

Shania Twain - You've Got a Way

My goodness, I actually have things to say now, but its late tonight already, but tomorrow I'll write an update for sure! And it'll actually be meaningful! For me anyways, so if you care about me, then you can read my "meaningful" post.

Backstreet Boys - I'll Never Break Your Heart (acapella)

Haha! BlogSpot is finally back up! I'll write another update tonight, I've got to go to Hot Import Nights right now.

Utada Hikaru - First Love (live)

I was scolded by my parents tonight for more than 1 hour about nothing really, just "You're not trying hard enough at school" and "You need to learn how to study correctly" and "College is very different and you need to make sure you don't get into trouble" and just a lot of stuff like that. Most of it was just me and them arguing about everything, but its very complicated to explain. But that isn't really my point that I'm trying to get to, the point that I'm trying to make is this: I know I myself am pretty darn lazy and is it because I'm just a lazy person because I'm able to choose and I just choose to be lazy because I am? Or is it because I was raised this way and I am lazy? I realize that this is all the nature vs. nurture thing that I discussed in psychology class, but I only bring it up because I find this very... interesting. Okay, perhaps not interesting, but an important topic because is it the parents fault when a child doesn't succeed? I'm not suggesting that I should blame my parents for my shortcomings and/or failures, but, are they to take at least a bit of blame? Or is it all me and regardless of what they did I would be lazy?

I'm not quite sure how to word my questions on this topic because there are just so many bases that need to be covered. As far as I'm concerned, my parents definately tried their best to raise me correctly and look how I turned out... I would never tell them flat out that I think its their fault that I'm this way because I don't know if it is or not first of all, and second, I don't think I could ever tell them something like that anyways. Oh well... whatever, whats done is done I suppose. Maybe if you asked me I'd explain sometime, but not here on my blogger, this stuff is something a bit too personal and I'd prefer it not be out in the public, not that there are all that many people reading this...

As far as regular "news" about me goes, today I started to write a list of people who I might and definately will leave things for in my senior will as well as what I'm leaving them. So if anyone's that desperate to have something and actually reads this... email me or IM me and maaaybe, just maaaybe you'll get something ;)

Boyz II Men - I Will Get There

Sorry for the lack of updates the last few days, well, lack of real updates the last few days. On Friday night my back ached and I don't know why, but I was feeling queasy and uncomfortable for a good portion of the day and I took Tylenol, as a matter of fact, I took over the recommended amount of Tylenol in a 24 hour period! Oooh! Ahhh! So that went away when I woke up Saturday morning, after sleeing early on Friday, like I posted, but on Saturday morning when I woke up, my back didn't hurt no more, but my head "hurt like a b*tch!" as you can see from my previous post. It was a seriously bad headache, and it just continued throughout the entire day, I don't know why.

But thankfully today, I woke up, after taking a crapload of Tylenol again the previous day, this morning I was feeling fresh as rain, or good as new, or some other phrase like that. This morning I got up and out of bed so I could go to "Masquerade Club's Annual Banquet" as the invitation states. It was at the local Macaroni Grill. The food there was good, as usual. Although this time, my "Farfalle al Sugo Blanco" was in a much smaller portion than I had expected for the $13.50 that I paid, oh well, as long as I get a job soon, money shouldn't be too much of a problem for me. I then hopped on over to Best Buy and picked myself up some new CD's, with the $50 bucks that one of my grandparents friends gave me for "graduating" in one of those Chinese red envelopes. I know, saying "red envelopes" in English seems odd to me, but I don't really know how to write it in Chinese on paper, much less on a computer.

I picked up 2 CD's actually, because I had a 10% off coupon that I found, and it expired today, so I just had to use it. I got myself the Sash! - Life Goes On album, which is just a bunch of techno-ish music, but I like it. I don't particularly hate techno/trance-y rave music, and no offense to anyone if I just mis-categorized your music, and as a matter of fact, I'm starting to get into this whole trance-y/techno thing, but most of the rave music sucks unless theres vocals! I don't dance really well, so I have to have vocals with my rave music ;) or else its just a lot of bass... which I suppose isn't bad either. I also got A New Found Glory - From the Screen to Your Stereo EP. I normally wouldn't have bought this, but aNFG was pretty good with that "Hit or Miss" single and this EP was only 4.99 at Best Buy minus the extra 10% so I just had to have it. The CD itself is only decent, but I can't complain at $4.99.

This afternoon I also happened to watch WWF Judgment Day Pay Per View at the National Sports Bar & Grill. Might I add, that place's food ain't that great. But I can't complain, I probably just ordered the wrong item. Anyways, I told myself when I started to write this blogger that I'd try to refrain from just listing the things that I did during the day, especially school days where it would be mostly "went to 1st period, then second, etc." but thats pretty much what I did this time. Oh well, I'll try to make up next time by posting something thought-provoking and interesting.

John Williams - Welcome to Jurassic Park This is from the JP soundtrack and I happen to like "movie music" in addition to everything else ;)

MY FVCKING HEAD HURTS LIKE A B*TCH! ARGHHHHHHHHH!

Marvelous 3 - You're So Yesterday

Wow, I'm sleeping so early for a Friday night... Its only 1am. But mostly because my back aches and I have a headache too... I haven't been feeling well all day. I watched Shrek today, its a good movie! I liked it quite a bit! Well, its off to bed for me...

Semisonic - Closing Time (Acoustic)

You know, in my 17 years of life I'm only now beginning to understand things. And in specific, I'm starting to see things about myself that I wish I were. For example, I wish I were a meaner person. Not that I want to be mean to anyone and hurt peoples' feelings or anything of that sort, but I wish I were able to hold grudges. Sometimes people piss me off, and I don't really go ballistic or anything, but I'll try to say things to them to show how pissed I am, stuff like that, but I can never hold a grudge, not even for a few hours. Once the moment has passed and I start talking to the person, and not in a "pissy mood" I can't stay mad, no matter how hard I try. Its really odd, I wish I could hold a grudge because... well I'm not sure why, but I just do. Perhaps its because I don't want to think of myself as an irrational person in heated moments. If I could hold a grudge, for me it would mean that my decision, concious or not, to be enraged at someone was pretty justified. I'm probably not making sense again.

Neve - Its Over Now

DISCLAIMER: I'm really stupid and my mind works in stupid ways, and this is me, to quote a certain junior, "...at the height of my stupidness..." By the way, I just threw that in to see if anyone reads this and someone else's profile. Just testing out my limited audience ;) End DISCLAIMER

I was walking home from the gym at CPE and as I walked out the door of the pool/gym a leaf hit my arm. And before you start thinking, "Oh goodness he's stupid, he's talking about leaves now." I say to you doubters: What don't you just wait until I hear what I have to say? But of course I say that as though you were interested in finding out more about me, but its probably not the case, so I suppose I am dumb. But at any rate, I started thinking like this, and by the way, each number is a continued thought from the previous, and thats how you can see how my stupid mind works. I cut out a few to save you people from having to read it, assuming you take time out to do so. And don't worry this has a point at the end... and I suppose you could stop reading, but then you won't know whats going on, right? So here goes:

1) What is the probability of a leaf hitting me after falling off the branch of a tree?
2) How many times in my life have I been hit by a leaf falling of a branch?
3) What is the likelyhood of being hit by a leaf?
4) How many times in one's life would you get hit by a leaf, on average?
5) With enough manpower and time you could calculate this...
6) You'd just have to have enough people to survey/watch a bunch of people walk and see where (indoors, outdoors, near trees, etc.) and when (seasonal, environment around them, etc.)
7) Then you'd need a bunch of people to just observe trees all around the world and see how much and when trees have leaves come off, and average that with some fancy smancy math I coudn't possibly do...
8) Well I thought some more about that and I realized:
9) With enough manpower, time, and money, of course, you could figure out the probability of anything.
10) I then tried to disprove my own theory but I couldn't, even with completely random things, you could figure out the probability, perhaps not a pattern, but probability.

I continued to think along those lines, and then this thought popped into my mind:

11) Whenever I'm alone, and not doing anything, like when I'm walking home from school unaccompanied by anyone, or walking home from the gym, like today, or even when I'm showering, stuff like that, a good majority of the time I'm thinking to myself, but its more of an internal dialogue, or monologue as the case may be.
12) And then I thought, maybe I'm crazy, but I'm not, because I wasn't actually talking to myself, I realized I was actually talking, or at least pretending to talk to someone, like I do in my blogger!

My final thought, before I stepped into my house, and those thoughts occured in a timeframe of less than 5 minutes by the way, was:

13) If someone were to record the thoughts that I have when I'm "thinking" and put it down on paper, or on a website such as this, it would just be a blogger, with a few more grammatical errors of course.

Yes yes, I'm very sorry for dissapointing you like that, but did I not put a disclaimer? So if you were disappointed by this anticlimax of an ending, then... technically, its your fault. Muahahahahaha!

Los Del Mar - Macarena! Hell yes! This song kicks butt!

Wow, this whole blogger thing is really catching on here at Whitney. Well, okay, to be fair its mostly just a select few people who are making bloggers, such as this one here: http://www.dolphins.blogspot.com/. If you read onto today's posts on that site you'll notice a mention about Blorgy(tm). Well, that certainly sounds interesting, I'll keep you guys updated.

As you can see I'm trying to make this little site a little better with the links on the side and what not, but I'm still trying to figure out HTML. You see, I'm not much of an HTML/programming/coding kind of computer geek. I'm more of a hardware geek. I like to "overclock" my computer and "overclock" my video card and read reviews about computer hardware on sites like this. Yes yes, I do have tons of free time on my hands! Well, most of you probably already know my AIM screenname, but there it is on the left, as is my email. So hit me up with some feedback. I'll try to expand this site a bit more, maybe put up a counter. If I ever get enough readers I might actually take time out to learn stuff for this instead of just using my basic HTML knowledge and blogger to write this stuff. Anyways, thanks for reading, whoever's out there.

Shaquille O'Neal f/ Peter Gunz - Twism

Ackkkkkkkk! AP Civics test tomorrow morning! I'm probably going to fail that just like I bombed on my AP Spanish. Oh well, doesn't much matter now I suppose. I found another blogger oddly enough, and it seems to follow my own format a bit :P Well, mostly just the mp3 at the end of the post... Its actually someone I know, but I won't point no fingers as to who's copying who. ;) At any rate, I should go to sleep now so I won't fall asleep during the Civics test. But a quick update on things going on with me. I need a job! How about giving me a job!? I'm looking for employment for the summer at the moment, and I'm thinking the movie theatre, or maybe Blockbuster, any other suggestions?

Jennifer Lopez - Play

Hm, I haven't updated for a day... doh! That post under this one was actually written on the day it says, but it wasn't posted until the same time as this post because Blogger was being stupid when I wrote that last one, not that anyone really cares that much I know.

Happy Mother's Day to any mothers who may read this site for some really really odd reason. Today I didn't do much for my mother... sadly. Well, the whole family, uncles, aunts, cousins and grandparents, not just my mom and dad, went out to eat together which wasn't that bad but I don't know, maybe its just me, but I find it very odd to talk to my parents about anything emotional. I mean I can talk to them about the Mavericks beating down the Spurs, yes yes, thats right, the Mavs beat down them sorry Spurs! And I can talk to them about the news, world events, but as long as its about myself... HA! I'd be hard-pressed to say anything about myself to them. I don't know why. And of course I know that this isn't just me, because since everyone (nearly) that I goto school with is asian, and they agree that, at least in chinese families, either the parents don't have deep meaningful thoughts, and they only think of "work work, cook, schoolwork, punish children" or they don't speak about it much. I think its because my parents didn't talk to me much during my first few years about important meaningful things, that now I don't talk to them. But of course we now would have to get into the whole argument regarding nature vs. nurture, etc. And I don't want to, at least not on my blogger. So I'll leave you with that note, more tomorrow if I take a break from studying for my AP Civics test.

Sash! - Mysterious Times

I just got home from Norwalk High School for my UC Subject A Exam. What a waste of time and money that was. You know, I realize that UC's have to keep a certain degree of student in thier system, but did they really need the ETS to administer the exam? I mean give me a freakin' break, the ETS, a "non-profit organization" might I add, makes me pay $55 for that lousy test... But I won't get into that now, stupid ETS, I'm sure you've already heard all the arguments anyways. I'll post more later, I've got to watch Dallas Mavs kick some Spurs azz.

Linkin Park - Crawling

WooHoo! I got the archives to work with the help of my cousin. So for those of you who have absolutely nothing better to do, you can go through the archives and read about me, read lots of stuff about me. Today was an unaverage type of day for me. I woke up for school some 30 minutes late (8:30am) because I hadn't set my alarm clock back 1 hour from the previous school day on which we had a "Late Start Day" so I missed first period, which wasn't that bad considering we haven't done much in that class of late. Then during the day, due to the AP testing we have at our school this week, I don't really have a fourth period class, so what I did was wander around school. I did this and that, visited classrooms and what not... but then I went to my locker to pick up a book. Prior to this, I'm betting the last time that I opened my locker was more than 2 or 3 days at least. But when I opened it today, there was a giant Santa Claus costumed Teddy Bear. And of course I'm very confused now. I left it in there... and I speculated about what it could be.

1) Someone meant to give it to someone else but put it in my locker on accident.
2) Someone likes me, left the bear there, but forgot to leave a note... eh... not likely.
3) Someone's smuggling drugs into the school and figured a good place to hide drugs would be in a locker that is checked very infrequently.

Well, there are an infinite number of posibilites and I won't speculate them all of course. As of now, I decided to keep the bear in there, and I unjammed the lock on my locker so whoever left it there will have to know my combination to get it back... Well, that was pretty much it as far as "unaverage" days go. Just a reminder for those of you, the bold words at the end of every post is a song that either I recommend, or I just happen to be listening to while typing this up.

Frankie Lymon & The Teenagers - Why Do Fools Fall In Love

Hmm, my writing blogger has resulted in others following my wonderful example! :) Here are the few that I've found so far:

Angelo's Thoughts is a nice site... too unorganized IMHO ;)
The Id, Ego and SuperHumungousEgo of the Nash nice site too, but only one post so far...
Just Ty's 2 cents about Life is my cousin's site... the best of the three... but of course I'm quite biased in that matter.

Case & Joe - Faded Pictures

Oookay... well that was one hard AP Spanish test! I went into the test quite positive and feeling good about myself, but... well... not any more. After doing that reading comprehension type thing, well, no more! I think I did decent on the speaking and the writing, but that multiple choice just screwed me over! Woo Hoo! There $77 down the drain! I could've spent that on hookers or something ;). Nah, I probably would've just squandered it on something stupid anyways. So that would be one AP down and one left to go! There are a lot of things about high school I'll miss, but AP tests is certainly not one of them.

This blogger isn't really that time consuming to write as some may think and have voiced to me. What really gets to me is the fact that I hardly ever have anything to write about. But I have to go eat dinner now, so I'll write this later tonight.

IMx - Stay The Night

AAAAAAHHHHHHH! My AP Spanish test is tomorrow... today, whatever. I tried to study today too, the same way I studied this weekend. I opened up my Amsco book and I read the words, but they just weren't sticking in my brain. It was like my eyes were passing over the words, but my brain wasn't really registering them. This is a result of me either being lazy or having a short attention span, probably a combination of both. But on a positive note, I did study for AP Civics during the weekend.

It has been brought to my attention that my blogger makes me seem boring and someone else pointed out that I have too much time on my hands to write my blogger. Well you know what I say to you people? I must be awful important to you in order for you to take time out of your exciting, event-filled, busy busy day to read this. That is all, so it is written, so it shall be done.

John Coltrane - After the Rain

Okay... I was going to write about why I watch movies, but I'm too tired now, so I'll write it up tomorrow, or Tuesday, since tomorrow I'll be studying for my AP Spanish test. At least trying/faking studying for it. But I'll write this today: Lakers, Mavs, Philly, and Bucks in the next round. And Charles Barkley is cool. I don't get cable at my house, but I goto the gym at CPE to workout and watch the NBA games during the work week and he's a funny guy. He used to be my favorite basketball player, and he still is! Oh, and on the topic of basketball, where is Bob Costas? I want him back! Marv Albert is good, but wheres Bob!? What about Bob!?

The Offspring - The Meaning of Life

With AP tests coming up next week, you know what I did today? I went to go watch The Mummy Returns at the UA Galaxy Theatres in the mall. I must say, this movie was very good, especially since its a sequel. When I first saw the previews for this and saw that there was a "cute little boy" I thought to myself, oh my, he's going to be the worst thing in the movie... but no no! Not true! He was quite good as a matter of fact and he did a good job acting. He was almost never annoying, unlike a certain Jake Lloyd in a certain Star Wars movie and he was well cast. I would recommend this movie to just about any one, theres good action, some decent comedy, and its just 2 hours of good fun. I do have a few gripes about the movie though... the CG that they used was a bit extensive and at parts the CG got weak. The CG work seemed rushed and unpolished, especially towards the ending of the movie and it did take a bit away from the movie, but, the movie didn't rely on the CG so much that the movie as a whole was weakened by the less than stellar CG work. Go watch it! Everyone else is! :)

Since I'm talking about movies anyways, I'd like to recommend another movie that I watched during this week, after I went to Magic Mountain might I add, One Night at McCool's. This movie was very funny and also, another good 2 hours of entertainment. This is of course a "guy's movie" with the Liv Tyler washing cars, Liv Tyler wearing mini-skirts, and well... just Liv Tyler. But as long as the girl you choose to go with isn't too... how should I put this... as long as she isn't too conservative, you should be good. The movie was very funny, and very well written IMHO. The only complaint I have about that movie is the fact that the movie trailer / tv ads revealed a bit too much for me and I was able to foresee a few things coming. But overall, very well acted, very well written... just very well. Tomorrow I'll write something about movies, well... not about movies, but about why I watch some movies and what not... its complicated, I'll explain tomorrow if I feel like typing it out. Until then...

New Order - Bizzare Love Triange

Hmm... well today I didn't do too many productive things, like I predicted about myself. Well, to be fair I did vacuum the house and do some other various chores around the house, but as far as doing anything that I wanted to do to be productive for myself, like "living life" and all that, then I didn't do anything "productive." You know what I was thinking about today? (One of the many things I think about) I was thinking about how big a loser I am. Now don't everyone get up and tell me I'm not, because I know I am. And not just in that whole "high school heirarchy" becuase that will be a moot point in a mere 2 months, but just me as a person, in general. I know I sound like a depressed guy right now, but trust me on this, I'm pretty much over that now, and I'm in this inbetween thing... I'm not sure how to explain it. But thats not what I want to talk about anyways. What I want to talk about is why would any girl want to date me and on a grander scale, marry me. Since I don't have any female readers, and the only people I know of who read this are family, some guys and... sadly, Nash, who probably has nothing better to do with his time, its quite obvious I'm not looking for pity dates here.

Any girl should be able to do better than me. If a girl is willing to go out with me, not that I've ever been on a "real" date or anything, but if the situation were to arise, there must be some sort of catch, because a girl has to be able to find someone funnier, smarter, wittier, etc. than me. I, along with most people, have to face the facts, there is always someone better. I realize that these thoughts aren't quite as articulated as one would like them to be, but screw you, you're reading this and you'll like what I tell you to like! ;) But seriously, I don't understand this concept, if you're not the best, or even really good at what you do, does that make you a failure? No... that can't possibly be true becuase 99% of the people on this planet would be "failures." Argh, I can't quite express what I'm trying to say right now... I'm tired, and my back is sore because I slept on it funny yesterday. Blah, I don't want to go to school tomorrow. Not that I don't want to go to see the people, but I don't want to go to class, stupid stupid class.

Ayumi Hamasaki - Whatever (Ferry Corsten Remix)

Well, that stupid archives thing still doesn't work, still can't figure it out... maybe I'm just stupid. Today at my high school it was another STAR testing day and I didn't even have to attend school. Those stupid standardized tests for the state don't apply to seniors thank God. So instead of going to class like a good little boy, I went to Six Flags Magic Mountain with some friends. So I'm sure as you can guess, it was great fun. I rode that new ride Goliath and I must say, I expceted more from it. It was definately fun, don't get me wrong, just not as fun as I had anticipated. There was a part of the ride where the force was so great pushing on my head (I don't know what this is called since I sucked at Physics) that I either closed my eyes or I blacked out for a few seconds, but I'm betting it was the first one.

At Magic Mountain today, I won 2 stuffed animals, a small Kermit the Frog and this monkey with velcro hands... The girls whom I went with wanted the animals but I didn't give in, instead I paid for them to play the game on thier own. Its my contention that they can win their own darn prizes ;) Unless I had a crush on them I guess... But that wasn't the case here so no can do, I like my stuffed animals thank you very much. Today I also went into a real photo booth for the first time. I took pictures and there were 5 of us crammed into the booth so in all 4 of the pictures I didn't show up at all... So much for my first time. Well actually I have done the photo booth thing before in San Diego on the beach, but the picture wasn't in a strip, it was just a lousy old polaroid that was split up into 4 parts... what a rip-off, eh? Maybe next time I go into a photo booth I can be with a cute girl and... well you know how it goes. Heh, yeah right.

In other news about myself I got myself new computer speakers! I'm quite proud of them actually. I got them for a good deal online, they have 4 satellites and a sub-woofer. They kick ass. Listening to music with the sub-woofer is much more fun, and playing Counter-Strike, well thats just something else completely. I can actually tell which direction people are walking from instead of just left or right, I can tell if its front or back now! Woo Hoo! That may sound sarcastic, but trust me, its genuine joy. Tomorrow is yet another day where school attendance is less than important, so I won't be going to school, but I will be going to sleep now... so fare thee well.

Westlife - More Than Words

Argh, I've been trying to get this stupid archives link to work, but as of right now my brain isn't even thinking correctly. Do you know when your brain is like half asleep but you push your body on? Its sort of like that. Its that feeling where if I were to put my head down I'd be asleep in less than 1 minute, y'know? Anyways, today I found out that I had more readers than I thought I did, which is why I feel almost obligated to get this archives thing working. Maybe I'll even put a counter on here :)

Today, while I was wasting time mulling around school, I thought about some things, but I'll talk about them later. I've got to go to bed, like I said before, and take a shower first. Yep, I take showers at night. I know some people who take showers in the morning, and my question to them is of course, why? I feel dirty and grimy when I goto bed without showering. I feel like I'm getting all of the dust, sweat, whatever, onto my blankets and stuff when I sleep without showering. (Unless I'm really tired of course, in which case, exceptions must be made.) Well, enough of that, good night.

Martina McBride - Valentine