Oh! and Merry Christmas!

Well I goto Las Vegas tomorrow. This will be the first Christmas I'm away from my parents I think. I'm going with my uncle/aunts and cousins. My parents are going to this fancy 7-course dinner at Yosemite with my mom's work. I'd have gone, I can hardly resist something that tempting... Jeez... I mean SEVEN courses! But there's nobody my age there and I think my parents want to be hanging out with the adults there anyways, so thats all good. I get to go to Vegas and possibly some other destinations. This should be fun. More likely than not the last time I'll have a sort of "family" vacation, although certainly not the entire family. I'm getting older and "moving on in the years" if I can describe myself as such. And this is likely my last trip. Better make it a good one eh?

Chuck Berry - Run Run Rudolph

Go watch The Lord of the Rings. It kicks serious ass. And I'm not just saying that because I'm a big fan, its got some cool fight scenes too for people that are only into that. Or if you're into the lovy dovy thing, its got some of that too! And Liv Tyler is hot! And there's also a Star Wars preview that precedes the movie. So if all that doesn't persuade you to watch this masterpiece of a movie then you're just a plain hater. And we all know you shouldn't hate, you should participate!

Howard Shore - The Lord of the Rings Soundtrack

Okay, now that I'm home, I haven't had much to do, so I figure I'll make up for the lack of updates and write all about my first quarter in college. Now that I'm home, I figured I'd list a few things about being home that I like and can't have at college and vice versa:

-At home, when I fart around other persons, I don't feel a need to explain myself.
-At college, the water in the shower is hot as soon as I turn it on.
-At home, I get to decide what I watch on TV.
-At college, when I'm bored I only have to walk down the hall for entertainment.
-At home... well I can't think of anything right now, but I'll have more later, in other posts.

College has been interesting. Dorm life hasn't exactly been what TV and movies have told me, but then again I'm not the party guy that those people in movies and TV are. But maybe things will pick up second quarter. And its not like I want keggers all day or panty raids, what I mean is I haven't really met any friends that I automatically click with. Like most of my friends that I've met are all on account of the fact that we live together and are sort of *forced* to associate and we associate out of convenience as opposed to really being friends. Its not that I really mind having to associate with them, its just that they aren't people that I believe I will associate with for any realistic amount of time, outside of the dorms, once I move it. Oh well. The year is young.

My internal clock seems to have righted itself. After starting the week with a 48-hour marathon of not sleeping, I went to bed at 8PM one day and slept till 10 or 11, then the next day I went to bed around 1 and woke up at 7 for a final. But what was weird was when I got home, Friday, I fell asleep watching TV at around midnight and woke up at 1 to stumble to bed, to awake, naturally, around 10:00. This was weird, but today I also went to bed relatively early and woke up at 9. But today I awoke due to a phone call, nothing special. We'll see tomorrow.

Fun things that've happened to me during college, first quarter of freshman year, in a sort of list. Not that its going to happen, but if anybody just happens to be interested, most of these have some anecdote, or more story involved that what I'm listing.

-Spent entire time playing Madden 2002
-Roommate got arrested, and police, or some other government officials searched my dorm room.
-Had a weird crush on somebody I don't think I need to mention on this public thing...
-Characteristic of my entier academic career, started out the school year with good grades and sort of faded away, maybe I'll start and finish strong next quarter.
-Went to an Alien Ant Farm concert and got beat up a lot, that was cool.

Uh... okay, well my mother needs the use of this computer now, so I'll relinquish it to her. More on college later.

Jeffrey Gaines - In Your Eyes

AHHHHH!!!!! Finals week. Ugh. Finally the whole procrastination thing has caught up to me. Oh well. No sleep for 24+ hours is a small price to pay for 3 weeks of doing absolutely nothing at home. Hopefully anyways. More later when I don't feel dizzy standing up. I've got 3 different papers to write, so I should get movin' on them.

John Williams - The Patriot

These last few days have been all screwed up. I think I've messed up my internal clock quite a bit, even more so than usual. Normally I'll get to bed around 3-4 AM, sometimes I'll stay up till 5 if I don't feel tired, but for sure before the sun rises. But yesterday I stayed up all night to finish an 8 page term paper for my political science class. The paper didn't turn out horrible, but it obviously needed improvement and I didn't sleep all night. I stayed up most of the day until the afternoon, and I fell asleep from like 3 or 4 o'clock till around 12 AM. And now I haven't slept. So basically here goes my plan. I plan to stay up till around 11 or 12 tonight and goto sleep when a normal person would sleep and wake up around 9 or 10, depending on how tired I am. Hopefully that'll get me back on track for correcting my sleep schedule. I certainly hope I'll be able to because next quarter, Monday, Wednesday and Friday I've got class at 9:10am. Horrible, I know, but the class seems very interesting.

It's been nearly 3 months into my college career and I've realized that the reason I haven't been posting is because I'm in a rut, intellectually anyways. All of my thoughts are nothing important, or worth posting anyways. Its not like I'm a boring person, well, not any more than usual, its just that college has allowed me to become lazier, and I haven't had to do much thinking. Classes here are pretty simple so far and all I do is hang around doing nothing and go to classes. Oh, and I can't forget the computer that I spend days at a time on.

I was watching the Drew Carey Show yesterday and I saw this episode where he and his girlfriend were going to tape themselves having sex. That whole concept of taping oneself having sex with his or her chosen partner is just very weird to me. Aren't you just asking for somebody to find it and watch it? For example, Pamela Anderson and company. Does watching oneslf have sex turn you and your chosen partner on? But then again, perhaps I should have a chosen partner before I can make that decision, huh? Perhaps I will post more ramblings later on.

Oh. And another thing. Just to check readership here, anybody want anything for XMas? ;)

UB40 - Red Red Wine

Well, Thanksgiving break has started and I haven't posted for nearly two weeks, good for me eh? Ah well. Not much to post really... I guess I found my life much more interesting back in high school. Or maybe its more like I've just got more stuff to do in college.... nahhh.... I don't do anything but play computer games, eat, occassionally study, and talk to other people even more infrequently... or somem other schedule that sounds less loser-like. But now that I'm back home I guess I've got more "alone" time. No, nothing like masturbating or anything stupid like that... you perverts. Anyways.

For Thanksgiving, I did basically the same thing I do every year. Got together with my family and ate a Chinese mixed with American food Thanksgiving feast. It's weird really, but I guess you'd have to be in my family to understand it, or possibly just be Chinese. So at any rate, it was pretty good dinner. We had a Thanksgiving dinner at my dorm dining hall and that actually tasted better, the stuffing and turkey part anyways. Here at home, my Chinese-ized turkey and stuffing wasn't quite what I'd expect from a Thanksgiving dinner. But the Chinese food was certainly welcome, dorm food sucks for the most part.

Well today I was at the mall and I was there to observe the shopping goings-on since it is supposed to be the busiest shopping day of the year, but here in Cerritos at least, it was quite lax. I mean there were quite a few people in the mall, but it wasn't booming with people which certainly isn't a good sign. But anyways, thats not what this is about. Stupid sidetracking. Two odd things happened to me. First of all, I was at Kelly's Coffee at the Cerritos mall and I saw this girl working at the counter who I'd never seen working there before. I go to Kelly's quite a bit, nearly everytime I'm at the mall in fact. Its one of those small Starbuck's like stores, but so much better, coffee and price wise anyways. Its got those wooden floors and coffee beans all over the walls with artsy-fartsy pictures and wooden chairs and tables, you know the type. At any rate, the person working at the counter was strangely familiar and I suddenly realized that it was because I had went to Middle School, or Junior High, whatever you want to call it, with her! Admitedly, she was one of those "cool" people, as far as the social ladder went, and I was just a sociable drifter type who made friends with most people. Its like this one TIME magazine article described about high school. I'm one of those kids who made friends and talked on the phone with all the cool people, but didn't get invited to the parties. Something of that sort.

Well, this girl looked exactly the same, except maybe taller, since middle school, and I can remember having a ... crush on her. Mostly because she paid me attention, and was fairly cute at the time, and now too. But I didn't say a thing to her, well other than my order. I don't even know why. Its not like it would've done anything, but my excuse was that she was busy, and there was a long line... I don't know. So I left that store with only my mocha freeze, which is better than the stupid Frappuchinos from Starbucks by the way.

Okay, so the night continued fairly normally until I got to Sam Goody. On display there was the newest of the new video game consoles, Nintendo's very own Gamecube. There was a demo available to play there and the girl playing there offered me the second controller so I could join her in playing WaveRace. Now this is completely normal right? Two nice people, strangers, just sharing somethign that is free to everybody. But she soon left me to play alone, and I never got a look at her face, or body ;) for that matter but I did talk with her a bit while staring at the TV screen. And what got me after she left went something like "What if she's the girl of my dreams?" I know it sounds really cliche'd and stuff, but what if she was it and I missed my chance right there. Or what if the girl at Kelly's, my old middle school friend was it? However unlikely, what if, huh?

So what this has taught me is that I should stop being such a chicken, introduce myself to people... and Carpe Diem and all that stuff, like Robin Williams says in Dead Poet's Society, applied to a hopeless romantic situation! Please tell me if I'm making no sense what so ever.

Underdog Project - Summer Jam

I came into college believing that I was one step or more ahead of the game, when I'm really on the same step. Its pretty bad. Whenever I try to applaud myself and think that I'm ahead of the game, I'm not. But its okay, at least I get an idea of reality, or rather, my reality anyways. But I've got a long day ahead of me. And I still haven't slept, I spent all night wasting time, and taking 3 hours to do a 20-30 minute assignment. Sigh. Oh well, the troubled life of a college student eh?

The Little Mermaid - Part of Your World

I'm just too damn picky. College is supposed to help you make new friends and all that stuff, and while I've made new friends and that "stuff" I've also found that I'm becoming more and more selective. I keep looking for a girlfriend. Well not really, but a life partner of sorts, or whatever you'd want to call it and I can't seem to find anybody who I can imagine myself with in the future. I don't know if its because I'm afraid of different things, I know that I'm afraid of change, but I'm not sure if its the difference in reality and my dreams that I'm afraid of, or if its something else. And as with everything, its probably a combination of everything. A combination of my fear of change, failure, and general bad luck. Heh.

I've also recently found that I should avoid staying in the same place for very long with people, and in life. After a while, I get stuck in a rut. I'm not one of those people who starts strong and finishes strong, or stronger. I just start strong and I fade from there. Maybe thats a bad sign for me and a bad omen for my future. Damnit, why can't I just be more darn positive. Blah.

I did pretty darned well on my mid-terms this first quarter of college. I mean I haven't really gotten the grades back yet or anything, but just coming out of the tests, I feel that I finished strong :) Or at least I'm strong half-way through, which is more than I can say for most of my efforts. But this Blogspot post has just disturbed me from my studying in the middle of the night, so I'll depart on that somewhat positive note. Wheeeeee.

Aaliyah - Rock the Boat

Oops, closed the window so I'm having to retype this, ugh. Anyways, I was talking about yesterday, I mentioned a post about the shower that I never bothered to post. Well, a few weeks ago, I was in my dorm room and getting ready to go take a shower and I get my soap, Irish Spring, for those of you who care, and my shampoo, Finesse and I got my towel and walked across the hallway into the restroom to take a shower, and to my surprise, there was someone else in there taking a shower already. Now before you people start to say things, this has no homosexual connotations whatsoever, so I don't want to be getting any of those stupid email's saying "you're homophobic" or stuff like that. But then again, any email about my blogspot would be nice... ehh... whatever, go ahead and gay bash me, I don't care.

Well, anyways, it was 3 AM and thats when I usually take a shower and theres usually nobody in there. I don't really mind that someone else was in there, but I figured it could potentially be very awkward. At any rate, I did what I usually did, got undressed, and got into the shower, and as I was taking a shower and the guy (assumedly) was in the next stall and I was putting soap on my nekkid self, I couldn't help but wonder "What if I dropped the soap, and it skidded over to the other shower stall?" I kept thinking this because I guess I felt really awkward about asking another naked man for soap, for one reason or another. Yeah, I know it sounds stupid, but thats what I kept thinking.

Well now that I wasted a sufficient amount of your time with that pointless information, I don't really have anything to say now. But I will try to entertain.

Lately, I've been thinking about this whole girlfriend/boyfriend thing. I think I'm too damn picky. I mean I say that stolen line from a friend of mine of "beggars can't be choosers" but in reality, I'm quite picky. Like I'll think things about women. I don't want to sound self-centered or anything like that but whenever a girl might have liked me, whether she did or not, I'd think about 10-15 years down the road and if I could see them with me still. Its odd really, I think like a girl almost. Well a stereotypical, Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks romantic comedy watching girl anyways. I long for that feeling "you only read about in trashy romance novels" as Kevin Smith put so well in Chasing Amy, which, by the way, has become one of my favorite movies. I only wish I could think of something so romantic to say, as Holden McNeil (Ben Affleck) said in that really good movie. So I'll leave you with a quote like this. I want to feel like the following:

"I love you. And not, not in a friendly way, although I think we're great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although I'm sure that's what you'll call it. I love you. Very, very simple, very truly. You are the epitome of everything I have ever looked for in another human being. And I know that you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you would ever consider. But I had to say it. I just, I can't take this anymore. I can't stand next to you without wanting to hold you. I can't, I can't look into your eyes without feeling that, that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels. I can't talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are. And I know this will probably queer our friendship - no pun intended - but I had to say it, because I've never felt this way before, and I don't care. I like who I am because of it. And if bringing this to light means we can't hang out anymore, then that hurts me. But God, I just, I couldn't allow another day to go by without just getting it out there, regardless of the outcome, which by the look on your face is to be the inevitable shoot-down. And, you know, I'll accept that. But I know...I know that some part of you is hesitating for a moment, and if there is a moment of hesitation, then that means you feel something too. All I ask, please, is that you just, you just not dismiss that - and try to dwell in it for just ten seconds. Alyssa, there isn't another soul on this fucking planet who has ever made me half the person I am when I'm with you, and I would risk this friendship for the chance to take it to the next plateau. Because it is there between you and me. You can't deny that. Even if, you know, even if we never talk again after tonight, please know that I'm forever changed because of who you are and what you've meant to me, which - while I do appreciate it - I'd never need a painting of birds bought at a diner to remind me of."
-Kevin Smith, via Holden McNeil (Ben Affleck) in Chasing Amy

Billie Myers - Kiss the Rain (Chasing Amy Remix)

Okay, well I've tried to, or begun to post several times in the last few weeks but either I got bored and stopped typing, or I realized that anything I had to say wasn't very important at all. But tonight, after doing a lot of nothing, watching reruns of Boy Meets World, one of the shows that I have come to judge my life on... sickening really. I was watching it on the Disney Channel of all stations. Well, the last few times I wanted to post and couldn't for various reasons, I had interesting things to say about college, like the showers, and girls, and other stuff, but I just couldn't put myself up to posting. I'm so lazy. As you can tell, thats a theme for me here.

Tonight, I've actually been really nostalgic. Well, actually, not just tonight, but a lot of nights. I think I'm falling back into my old rut of depressing thoughts. Its sad really. I was reading at ABCNews.com about post-traumatic stress disorder following the tragedy of 9-11 and I realized that I think its affected me too. I mean I haven't really been directly affected, especially since most of the happenings are all on the east coast, but... in some indirect way, its affected me. I'm still sorting it out, but it has, without a doubt. Maybe more on this later. I'm going to try to force myself to write with more frequency, for the millionth time in the short time I've had this blogspot.

As far as a World Series prediction goes, I wanted Seattle and Atlanta, so this is just suck. I don't want either team, but I think that the Diamondbacks are going to win, but I'm not going to cheer for either team.

Shakira - Suerte

I would've posted earlier, but the fact that UCR's ResNet was suspended from us dormitory folks for like 3 days, it sucked a lot. But anyways, college is pretty good still. Y'know what sucks though, having crushes. Its so damn high school, or even elementary-ish. Ugh, but thats a bit too private for this site, if you know what I mean. Hopefully I'll be all over it by the next time I post because right now I've got to read some books and then try not to fall asleep. *Sigh* Thank goodness for Coca-Cola my favorite!

Whitney Houston - I Will Always Love You

Since coming to college, I've realized that my real life has become rather mundane, so much so that I can't tell the difference between my largely uneventful dreams and my largely uneventful waking moments. And this blending thing isn't one of those cool ones like they have in the movies like The Matrix but rather a jeez, my dreams are boring... but wait, maybe someone said that to me in real life. Perhaps this is just like a premonition of what is to come and I'll be crazy in the future, unable to distinguish reality from illusions. Or maybe I just need to get out more and stop sleeping through the day. But this, as with most everything, is probably a culmination of all of those things and I really need to stop sitting at home on Friday's and Saturday's doing nothing. Oh well.

Ginuwine f/ Timbaland - When Doves Cry

I'm a bad bad student, just horrible. And if you feel the need to mock me after reading this, then you can suck it. Anyways, this was our first full week of class and y'know what I did? Well, I went to my American Gov't lecture and I fell asleep. Can you believe that!? I feel asleep on the second day of class. I seriously thought that I'd make it at least 1 or maybe even 2 weeks before I started dozing off in class. But thats not the worst of it. I had my discussion for that class later that day and I almost fell asleep in there. If the class had gone on for another maybe 30 minutes, I most likely would've dozed off. My english and introduction to film classes were a bit more pleasant. I was actually awake and attentive. But then on Wednesday I skipped my lecture, for American Government to go eat breakfast... and today I skipped it again, knowing full well that if I showed up in class that I'd fall asleep anyways. My friend went, however, and he admitted to falling asleep in there after demanding that I go this morning, HA! Loser.

But I'm still keeping up in classes and what not. I've read my books, done my assignments, so I'm not doing horribly, I'm just missing class a bit.

Lifehouse - Sick Cycle Carousel

Second post from UCR. Classes really start tomorrow. Sadly, I haven't even bought my books yet or even found out where 2 of my 3 classes are. Well, nothing more than a general sense. I really like college because it allows me a lot of freedom, as I'm sure anyone will tell you. My dad asked me today if I wanted to go home, and of course I didn't! Well what I actually said was something to the effect of "Well if I do go home it'll just be to get some stuff and then come back the same day." I don't know why but I'm not homesick at all, at least not at that time. Perhaps I've actually learned to grow up, at least a bit anyways. So in the spirit of being more responsible, I'm going to go to sleep instead of write more. Yes yes, lousy excuse but you know what? Too freakin' bad. More later.

Boyz II Men - Dreams

Hmm... no update for a while, been busy doing stuff actually. But from here on out, my thoughts will be available to all, well the ones I care to share anyways. Now that college is going on and I have things to observe besides CT's beating down T's and Sorceresses using static field, those of you who get that will find that extremely sad, and those of you who don't get it, I guess you're just not 1337 enough to understand what I be talking about. But anyways, UC Riverside here isn't half bad despite the 100 degree weather. I'm pretty much settled in here but I'm still lacking in a few things, like laundry detergent and tissue paper, but that can be dealt with later. I mean who needs to was their clothes and blow their noses?

My roommates are pretty cool. I most likely wouldn't have been friends with them otherwise because we run with different types of folks, but thats all good. What I like about college, so far anyways, is that everyone is so nice to each other because most people are all in the same situation where they don't know anyone, or a few people, and they are very receptive unlike in high school when people automatically make judgements. Not to say that things like pre-judging don't happen here, but just not as much I'd say. Thankfully classes have yet to start so I don't have any experience about how difficult things like that are but from what the deans, the professor and blah blah all administrators are telling us is that its hard as hell but you know what I say? Okay, well nothing interesting, just something like "Bah, we'll see..."

Anyways, as far as what I've been doing yesterday night I watched Undeclared and I'm glad this show came on this year because I can live my college experience through the eyes of the main character, Kevin Harp. I mean he's already screwed a girl he only said like 10 words to. C'mon, I mean I'm no stud but I'm sure that the way in which they did it was a bit more rapid than like 99% of the folks in college... but then again, I wouldn't know. Anyways, its almost time for dinner so I'm going to go, more later fo sho'.

Wu-Tang Clan - Triumph

I've been watching and listening to the news all day and this is still completely unbelieveable. I was almost completely speechless when I woke up in the morning, but now I'm more able to make observations and decisions. Seeing those Palestinians celebrating... I don't know, what I felt from that was horrible. In a situation like this there isn't much that I can say that hasn't been said or thought of. All I can say is please do something, anything to help. Go donate blood, or donate money... something. I wish I could do something besides donate money. At this point, if there were a draft of some kind for war, I would seriously consider signing up.

Shoutcast.com - AP Breaking News Live Coverage

God, nearly a month without a post... well, okay, not nearly a month but a long time. I've been so lazy doing nothing and avoiding thinking of any sort that doing any sort of introspective work would disturb me too much so I didn't write anything here. But I'm here to announce that I love New York City! Someone mentioned that most people like it but wouldn't want to live there, but me? I think I want to live there, but of course, I'll visit there a few more times before it comes to that. I really don't have much to say, I've been keeping myself busy on Battle.Net killing Diablo and Baal, w00t w00t and of course hanging out in Day of Defeat servers. Hopefully with school starting in a few days I'll have more new experiences and ideas to post because at this point in my life, my emotional development is at a horrible halt, all I do is mindlessly click a mouse button and stare at my computer monitor (a nice monitor at that, but a monitor all the same).

Today I got my residence hall information for UC Riverside and my roommate's name is Nikita Frolov. Yeah, I'm about as confused as you are. With a bit of research I found that "Frolov" is generally russian and that some males are named "Nikita" but I still find that a bit weird. I'm sure that whoever he is, he's a very nice guy, but its just an odd name... but we'll see how things go. He didn't leave a phone number on the sheet so I guess I'll have to wait 2 weeks before I find out who this fellow is.

My new favorite place to shop is TJ Maxx. I went there to get some bed spreads and sheets for my dorm and I found tons of deals on clothing. Sure, the clothing isn't very organized or very high in selection... but with a bit of luck and searching I believe you'll find what you're looking for there.

Lately, with my lack of emotional development, I've been thinking about how my parents have affected me, now that I'm moving away from them. I fear... or perhaps more like anticipate that I'll end up like my dad despite my best efforts. Not that theres anything horribly wrong with being like my dad or anything of that nature, but I don't want to have to be like him. Everyone sees those movies where the son realizes how much akin to his father he is and... well I hope I'm not like that. My dad is a great guy, as most dad's are, with few exceptions, but I would like to hope that I can learn from his mistakes and be a better person and perhaps one day a father... although at the rate that I'm going, I don't think anyone deserves to have to bear my child ;) ... Not that I would mind engaging in a bit of the process if you catch my drift :D

Okay, thats enough seeing as how its 4:30am. Oh, thats another thing, my biological clock is so messed up that its amazing that I'm able to function, but enough about me... hows about you email me so I have some real interaction with people.

Tricky - She Makes Me Wanna Die

I'm back from New York City for those of you who didn't know and I've been meaning to update with everything that I did and saw in New York City, but I've just been to busy being lazy after walking around so much in New York City that I haven't done it. Ah well, I'll get to it soon. I pretty much love New York City and I will move there one day, assuming my plan to be a billionaire and live forever pans out. But some bad news I heard today, on MTVNews first, no less, that Aaliyah died in a plane crash in the Bahamas. I don't have any sort of emotional attachment to her in any way, and I hope that this is a mistake, but in either case its just very wrong and unfair that someone like her passes on at such an early age.

Miles Davis - Someday My Prince Will Come

Hmm... I was reading through my archives a bit after re-reading one of the few responses to my Blogger that I've had... The archives seemed a bit messed up so I republished them and they all seem to be in good order now. Read it guys, because I won't be home to write these things until the 22nd, not that I've been writing all that many anyways. Maybe while I'm in the Big Apple I'll write some, from the library or something. Have a good week guys, I know I will.

Pushing Daisies - Disagree

I'm leaving for New York City tomorrow! I'll update when I get home on the 22nd. Maybe I'll even update while I'm over there if I can get to a computer.

Craig David - Fill Me In (Full Crew Remix)

Guess who's birthday is coming up in 35 minutes?

Toni Braxton - Unbreak My Heart

Okay, I've neglected to update for over half a month... but I'm back now and I'll get back in the groove of things now. So a quick update on what I've done lately. I finished my Cerritos College classes and I think I finished both classes with B's, not bad considering I scored a 47% on one of my ethics exams, hehe. Anyways, its 3:42am as I'm writing this, as you'll see on the date and time anyways, so I'll have to make this short. The classes weren't too bad, I think the English class was arguably the best English class I've ever taken because the English teachers at my high school, while most of them were nice, decent people, emphasis on most, I didn't learn too much from them. Now whether that was my apathy or the teacher's lack of teaching ability is the reason behind that, I don't know, but probably a bit of both. The ethics class isn't too bad either. The teacher was extremely dull and not very good at all. He would basically just give us handouts and then proceed to read them to us. There were some interesting things taught, but... not because of any of his handouts, that much I'll tell you.

This summer I haven't seen nearly enough movies. I'm quite disappointed actually. I thought I'd see more than the number I've seen up to this point. But I always have DVD rentals anyway. But I can recommend 2 movies for any of you who haven't seen these, but I'm sure you probably have seen at least one. Rush Hour 2, a very funny movie. Not as good as the first, but very good. I also saw Legally Blonde which is far better than a a certain movie with some monkees in armor. The movie is pretty funny if you enjoy stupid things and it also helps that Reese Witherspoon and Ali Larter not to mention the other sorority women in the movie are really really hot!

Well, on Thursday I leave for my first trip to the Big Apple. If you want a post card, drop me an email using that big envelope on the left. Heh, that ought to get some people writing me email responses, offer for free stuff. Alright, I've got to go.

Hoku - Perfect Day

This is pretty sad, I never update, but oh well. As far as the Celebrity CD from *NSync goes, its some what disappointing. And for those of you wondering, I did actually go out and buy the CD from Best Buy on the first day. A lot of the tracks sound sort of like "Digital Getdown" from their No Strings Attached sophmore album and that track sucked a lot. Nearly all of the songs are still catchy as hell which is a plus I suppose. I really like track 6 and 7, "Gone" and "Tell Me, Tell Me... Baby" respectively. The album cover isn't too bad looking either. At any rate, this album just doesn't give me the same feeling as thier past albums. I don't like it as much. Maybe I need to listen more and more... and I'll do that right now actually.

In other news, about me that is, I got a new computer monitor for college, but of course, I'm using it right now seeing as how I don't have my college computer yet. A Samsung SyncMaster 950p. Damn, stuff looks much better on a 19" monitor. And for only $160? I don't think that price can be beat. If you can beat that price, then tell me and I'll feel stupid as Hell. Well thats it for now.

Destiny's Child - Jumpin' Jumpin'

This will be short:

-Orientation was fun. I wish I had been even more participatory, but eh, what can ya do?

-I'm running out of inspirational things to say, so tomorrow I will have a review of the new *NSync CD... well not a review as much as a "What did Jonathan think" and not quite as complicated. And yes, I do like *NSync.

-I sleep too late, damn my bad sleeping habits.

-I don't want to grow old.

Mark Anthony - You Sang To Me

Tomorrow begins my first college experience! UCR Orientation. From what I hear its supposed to be fun, and it darn well be because UCR or any college for that matter must be dumb as hell not to make their orientation fun. Or at least attempt to. I actually had something to write, or I had planned something to write for today other than what I'm up to, but I can't for the life of me remember the topic that I had thought of on the COW to Cerritos College. But since I can't think of anything, then I suppose I'll just leave you diminishing number of readers with that. I'll try to get on a computer at UCR but I probably won't be able to. But on Saturday I'll post.

Damn, I really can't remember what I wanted to post. I should probably write this stuff down from now on whenever I think of it. Oh crap! I know what I wanted to post. Oh, its none of that universal crap that I think of that can apply to everyone, like that stupid stuff about boys liking girls and blah blah blah, today its going to be about how I feel dammit. So this whole thinking about college thing... I'm actually excited about college and looking forward to it. All year, and all my life, I've been hearing people talking about how they want to move out, live on their own, while all I could think of is how much I've missed out on already in my 17 (nearing 18) years of life. And I've had all these regretful feelings I'm not going to get into here, but lately, with all the free time I've had, I've been thinking about my future at UCR and beyond and I'm actually into this anticipation stage of the future. I think its because for me, its a renewal of sorts. A second chance. None of this, "damn my 9th grade GPA was horrible, well, there goes Harvard," type thing going on. Only "I'm going to do this and that and acheive this" from here on out. Sure, those could be as false as my saying "I'm going to love Mrs. Hall's class and try as hard as possible because she's such a great teacher," but at least I don't have any true background to start with. Catch my drift? Well, thats it for tonight.

Thomas Newman - Dead Already

Wow, long time no post.

I was on the bus Thursday, alone, on my way to Cerritos College and 3 indian guys, from India, not American-Indian, in business suits got on the bus and I sort of nodded, you know, acknowledging their presence. But they didn't respond back. They just continued talking in their foreign language and sat down. Now perhaps they didn't notice me, or they just didn't want to acknowledge me, but it led me to think of this stuff that follows here. Why are most people afraid to say "hello" to strangers? Earlier that day while waiting at the bus stop I nodded at a man who was passing by. Is it because most people are too shy and/or embarrased? Probably. Or perhaps they're afraid. I don't understand the politics of our delicate social environment in America. Why can't people just be friendly and say "hi" or something akin? I must admit however, I don't always say "hi" to everyone, but for the most part, I'll acknowledge people by making eye contact and a simple tilt of the head in a mutual sort of acknowledgement of each other's presence.

Well, enough observations on life for tonight. And more about my life. As of late, I haven't done much. I've realized that going to high school gave me interesting topics to post about and that going to college then going home to do nothing gives me nothing that the general reader of my site (all zero of them) would want to read. I'm sure most of you don't want to read about the newest AMD Thunderbird or my other geeky computer things. Maybe another blog for that would suffice. I think I'm going to attempt watercooling for those of you who care.

Antiloop - Purpose in Life

I finally got cable television installed from Verizon and its great! I'd always thought my parents were just kidding when they said that they weren't getting cable because I was going to watch it too much and not study but now that I'm leaving for college they suddenly get it, what is that!? But its all good, last night I was up till 4:30am watching Any Given Sunday. And tonight I watched Cartoon Network and Nick at Nite. Cable television is great!

My Cerritos College classes are going pretty well. My english teacher is a nice guy, even though he is a Braves fan, and he hates the Dodger hater. But its all good. My ethics class on the other hand... That teacher is fat and boring. I mean I'm fat, but I try not to be boring at least. This man teaches a very interesting subject, but the way that he teaches doesn't help the class much. But then again, who am I to judge.

Nikki Webster - Under the Southern Skies (Opening Ceremonies Sydney 2000)

I'm tired so I'll make this short. English class isn't that bad for me and as for Ethics, while the subject is quite interesting, the teacher is slow and for the most part, dull. I'll have to write more tomorrow, I hope you had a good Fourth of July, mine was decent. More revelations about nothing later.

Jordan Knight - Give It To You

Happy Fourth of July!

Shaquille O'Neal f/ WC & Nate Dogg - Connected

Tomorrow, well today (if you count late night as the next day) I'm starting my Cerritos Community College classes. I'm taking an Ethics class and Freshman Composition. I certainly hope that ethics is interesting and there is a lot of debate going on because if not, it'll seem like an awful waste to wake up at 7am just to go to the lousy 8 o'clock class. Personally I just like to debate "stuff" like religion, as you can see from my previous post, and pretty much any subject that I have some knowledge in. But I'll keep you updated on that as the class goes on. If its a good class with a good teacher, then I'll likely have good subjects to post on, otherwise it'll just end up being what I'm doing right now, which I'm sure you've figured out isn't very interesting.

On the job hunt front, (wow, look at that rhyming) I'm still unemployed. I won't resort to food services this summer. I refuse. I've just heard too many bad things about it and it just seems like a horrible job to be working in. Not that I don't love the food, or am I knocking the people who work there, but... I hardly think its for me. Plus, I don't really want to know what McDonald's does to their food before they serve it to me. Ignorance is bliss as I've said before. What I don't know, can't kill me. At least, not in the conventional sense anyways.

I've got to get up early, so sleep is a must for me tonight. More in a few days. Happy 4th and try to remember what we're celebrating on the 4th and don't just blow stuff up. I mean do blow stuff up, but... try to think about our country for a bit at least. I know I'll try to after 17 years of life in America and not once thinking about our country's independence while trying to make my Piccolo Pete fly. Play with fire safely, and don't blow your arm off with those M80's you got down in Tijuana.

Madonna - Take a Bow

"Do we, holding that gods exist, deceive ourselves with insubstantial dreams and lies, while random careless chance and change alone control the world?" -Euripides, Hecuba

*Sigh* Still no job for sorry Jonathan. Its sad really. I don't know what I've done wrong, they haven't even called me for an interview, and when I say "they" I mean Old Navy, Barnes & Noble, Macy's, etc. Now what this leads me to think is perhaps some power greater than me, such as karma, or possibly a god is intervening because of some past fault. Since my posts haven't been frequent, I'll make up with quality of posts. Quality, not quantity as they say.

You may be wondering what that quote above means, or perhaps you already know the direction in which this blog is headed. In either case, I'll continue on. In relation to the karma causing me not to get a job. If this the case, that would mean that something greater is controlling our destiny/fate. This of course gets into the whole religion idea which I'll touch on briefly from my point of view. Personally, I must say that I can't believe in God or any combination of gods/godesses just because of the mounting evidence against religion of any sort. I'm not saying people are wrong because who am I to say something like that, I can neither prove without a doubt either side, but its just a personal preference of course. And if you should want to argue this with me, I'm glad to, intelluctual conversation is always interesting.

While I don't believe in God or any other greater power, I often find myself thinking "Hmm... I downloaded some porn and I'm not 18, will there be reprecussions?" Or something along those lines. Or "Wow, no one's called me for an interview for a job, is it because I got drunk, beat some people up and stole a car?" You get the idea. And I think I ponder these things because while I don't believe in a God and/or karma, I sincerely hope that something like that exists or at least is never disproven because things like that provide stability, morals, and structure to our societies. But enough of that, I'm tired of writing. More soon.

*NSync - This I Promise You

I tried posting to Blogspot yesterday night, but it was down, so here I am again, at 4am in the morning. First off, I'd like to point out another blogspot/journal thing of my friend Jeff Min and this site mentions me in its first post stating that my blogspot was one of the better ones on the web. Thanks Jeff. And then he makes note of the fact that the song that I post at the end of each entry is annoying. Well, I figure it this way:

-People might want to know this information.
-Some people might want song suggestions for downloading.
-Etc. etc.
-Its better than that ugly, scary looking man you have on your site Jeff.

Anyways, on with the rest of the entry.

I had an epiphany recently, and it was something like this: We're always told by our parents (at least mine) that if we work hard enough, we will succeed and do well in life. And if we drive safely, we won't get into accidents. If we look both ways before crossing the street, yada yada. And while I'm sure that most everyone if asked about these things would say something along the lines of, "Sure, I know life isn't fair and we don't always get what we deserve," etc. But I don't think most people believe this. I've always heard this "Life isn't fair" stuff but I haven't really believed it. Most people live their lives believing that they are going to live another year, or be able to walk for another day, or have eyesight for another hour but in reality, I could be the target of a terrorist right as I'm typing this.

It was while watching reruns of Star Trek: Voyager, a show that I didn't particularly like, especially compared to the other Star Trek series, but have grown quite fond of. The rerun had a character have a personal saying (in Klingon, of course) translated into English meaning, "Own the day." This is akin to "Carpe Diem." At some point during this episode I realized that nothing in life is certain. Like I said before, I hear these things all around and from everyone, but I never believed in it until now. Perhaps I'm the only one who never really understood that life is unfair and nothing is certain. But at least now I'm with the masses.

Frank Sinatra - Luck Be a Lady

Well, for those of you reading, you can see that I've since graduated. Strangely enough, I don't think I've changed at all. I don't feel like I've changed. I feel pretty much the same. I thought I'd feel sad too, but none of that either, not too much anyways. I don't know why I don't feel sad. I talked about this before too. In the past, I was sad when the seniors left, particularly two years ago, but perhaps that was more of an emotional attachment to people than just graduating. This whole graduation thing, and moving on, for me, is very difficult because its having to move onto a new place. And I suppose thats life. But what I'm trying to say is that moving onto UC's or private college, or whereever people are headed, its a new place, somewhere we've never been. I realize that from elementary to middle school and then to high school are all transitions, but it wasn't the same because most of the people were following you, and it wasn't a sort of final goodbye. High school graduation is so final. I doubt I will see half of my high school class again, at least for 10 years. Or maybe next year at Homecoming. I've got to go right now, I'll finish this up tonight.

Blink 182 - Story of a Lonely Guy

I'M GRADUATING TODAY!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Snoop Dogg f/ Tony Toni Tone & Daz Dillinger - Midnight Love

It's true, you don't realize really what you got til it's gone
and I'm not, gonna sing another sad song, but
Sometimes I do sit and reminesce then
Think about the years I was raised, back in the days.

Back in the days when I was young I'm not a kid anymore
But some days I sit and wish I was a kid again

Ahmad - Back in the Day (remix)

Wow, I actually got a response to my "any thoughts" thing from my last post! Something about being a nice guy is always better than changing your personality for a girl to like you. So I guess I have an excuse to stay the same (or as nice as I am right now).

I'm still hunting for a job and whats really sad is that of all the applications I've submitted, only 1 place has replied, Mervyns. And all I got from them was a postcard saying they couldn't offer me a job, but you know what? I'd rather have a postcard than nothing at all. But eh, what can you do...

Now that high school is pretty much over for me, I've got some things on my mind now. I've been thinking a lot about this whole existence thing and life, religion, just everything in general, probably because I have tons of time on my hands now. And do you know what I've realized from all of my extensive thinking for these last few days and the time before this, is that ignorance is bliss. If I were able to just believe in God or Bhudda or some other religion blindly and not have second-doubts and believe in myself like I tell myself to without second-guessing myself life would be much easier. Ignorance is bliss, and that really sucks assmar for me, and for those who are ignorant because they don't know the truth of the matter, which is good in a way I suppose.

Coco Lee - A Love Before Time

You want to know what sucks? Well several things today actually... First of all, I went to my last Whitney dance ever, other than homecoming of course, or getting asked (however unlikely that is) back to a dance by a junior/soph whatever. At any rate, I didn't feel sad at all. I actually tried to feel sad, but I couldn't. Perhaps it was because I knew I was going to see them on Monday again, or Tuesday, or the rest of the next week and ignorance is bliss, so it would've been better for me to think this was the last time we'd ever see each other. But whats more likely is the fact that I don't have any real emotional attachment to these people in my class. Most of them anyway. I mean sure, I know everyone in the class, and I'm sure most, if not all, of the seniors know who I am, and I'm at the least aquaintances with most of them, and with some I'm friends, but what I realized is that I have no real emotional attachment to most of the seniors.

I attribute this to several things, or at least several possiblities. In the past, the Aloha Dance of 2 years ago for the class of 1999 I was very sad and for some reason I felt hurt and now I've made myself immune to this leaving thing. Or is it perhaps I've saved up all my emotion for graduation, junior/senior letter day, and events like that. Or I could just be a heartless, unfeeling guy, but I hope its not that last one. I honestly believed that I would feel some sort of emotion in terms of nostalgia, memories, and things like that, but for most of the dance, I didn't have too much fun, except during a set of "white" music they had. But I guess time will tell whether or not I'm an unfeeling bastard or if I have true feelings... next Friday!

On another thing that sucks, I was reading through some forums online and there was a discussion regarding guys who like girls who are their friends. I find that I'm able to make friends with most girls if I have to, and most everyone actually. In this discussion most of the guys declared that if you want to get with a girl, get into her pants, stuff like that, you have to be not one of her girlfriends but with a dick. And you have to be meaner to her, and not just give in too easy. So basically nice guys don't get any. So now I figure, I've been going about it all wrong. Not that I'm particularly looking for poontang or even a girlfriend, but... eh. Any thoughts people?

Sublime - What I Got

Have the good times come to an end? Does graduation from high school signal the end of the good times? Or at least getting near the end? Sure, college is probably tons of fun, but, after that what is there? Work work work work kid work work work kid retire? Clearly I'm quite biased in this view of life because all I know is high school and nothing else. But it seems that when people think back on their lives, what do they consider the "good ol'"? College and high school right? So what high school graduation is telling me is that I've got 4 maybe 6 (if I do master's) ahead of me and then its all over?

I was watching Leno a few nights ago and they have this thing called "JayWalking" where they ask people on the streets assorted questions and this week it was "If you could have any ONE super power what would it be?" And I was thinking about this and people would say things like "mind reading" and "super strength" or an ocassional "x-ray vision." However, I would never want those things. Well not that I wouldn't want those things, I'd take pretty much any super-power, but if I had a choice, I would take the power of mind control. I know, it seems very evil, and you know what? It is an evil ability, but its one I'd want. I would be able to do all sorts of things. Thats what I secretly would want, but if I were to have one to better man-kind, it would be something like super-strength or the ability to generate crops out of my ass or something. Okay, maybe not my ass, I wouldn't eat anything off my ass, but... you get the idea.

But what my point was, is that there was a guy on the show who said he'd like to be able to stop time and just fuck with people... well I wasn't quite that ingeneous but I was able to think further down the line on that, and if I were really to want a power it'd be able to control time, you know, turn it back etc. Or at least the ability to time travel which is equally powerful. First I thought of that power thinking, I could go back in time and find out where man came from... Big Bang? Or did we take 6 days and some guy took the 7th day off to make us? I'd do stuff like that. But once all that scientific study was done, I'd want to go back and be able to relive my high school experiences as well as the rest of my childhood, selfish I know. I realize that there are tons of paradoxes and loopholes in time travel that its not even funny... but lets just say anything I do cannot affect the timeline or whatever just to cover all the bases. Anyone else got any super power ideas? You can email me w/ that gigantic envelope to the left <------ over there. That'd be the first one I ever got in regards to my blogger! C'mon guys, be the first!

The Offspring - The Kids Aren't Alright

Ahh yes, Blogspot it back to its original form. Everything seems to be working now. Over the last few days I've been signing a few yearbooks and its been much easier than I expected. I expected to be very emotional at school, with today being our last normal day of classes and all, but not so! I seriously thought I would at least feel something, but it was just a "blah" experience for me. Anyways, my mom is getting pissed, can't even write in my own lousy journal thing. She just doesn't understand. Oh well. I'll write more when my parents are long gone... blah.

Juvenile - Ha

Graduation inches closer. Or perhaps, more like leaps.

I get my cap and gown tomorrow. I'm starting to feel nervous about this whole thing. I don't know why. I shouldn't. But its probably because I'm afraid of change. I'm now wondering about things in the future, like, where will everyone I know now, be in 5 years? 10? I wonder the same things that everyone else probably wonders, what is going to happen to us. I wonder, will I be some hobo on the street? Or will I be a sucessful whatever I am? Will my friends, aquaintances, everyone in my senior class, and even in the junior class... where will they be? I suppose this is all part of growing up, but I don't know if I want to see where I'll be in 5 years.

Backstreet Boys - Show Me The Meaning

Once again, I've not neglected to post in 3 days. Damn, I'm getting lazy. I haven't been to the gym in like a week either. But then again I've also been trying to catch up in my classes in school and working late on projects/essays and I've got another late night coming up tomorrow no doubt. My English project is due Tuesday, the presentation anyways, and I don't know anything about my topic, much less have any ideas as to how to go about this presentation. Ah well.

Okay, I'll for sure write my Blogger at least 4 times a week now. If I don't, well then damn me. If I can't even put my own thoughts down on paper, I'm lazy as hell.

Theres less than 2 weeks till my graduation! And just like I said in the beginning of the year, I don't think the whole senior thing has set in yet. But I'm sure the day-of I'll feel a little more than nostalgic.

Yearbook was released to seniors on Friday. General reactions have been good, except for a slight problem regarding the ads... but thats been pretty much resolved.

I still can't remember what was so important from last time that I wanted to write. Dammit.

Joe f/ Mystikal - Stutter (remix)

Finally, I have time to post. So here's more from my "craaaaazy mind" and more about my boring life.

Well, I watched Pearl Harbor and despite what lots of people have been saying, its not a bad movie. I won't say its great, but I enjoyed it more than Titanic at least. The battle scenes were really good! But thats not why I'm writing. After watching Pearl Harbor I went to the Pearl Harbor linked earlier and watched the little multimedia clips they have there, and set a picture of Kate Beckinsale as my background too :) Anyways, they have these clips of Pearl Harbor survivors there talking and I watched a few of those, and along with the movie, I don't know what it is, but I feel extremely patriotic.

And its not just feeling patriotic either, I feel like I need to join the army and fight. Maybe its all just a big subliminal message thing for people to join the army. But I think its more for me. I've been alive for what? 17 years? Nearing 18 now, and what do I have to show for it? Just a high school diploma that I haven't even received yet... I feel as though I need to serve something greater than myself, you know? And I don't want to hear any of this religion crap, not that I hear all that much about my Blogger from anyone, email or otherwise, but yeah... Thats a completely different debate. Its like this: I want to know I've made a difference. Like I don't want to go through life and be some guy working at a 9-5 deskjob doing a lot of nothing. I'm not saying that theres anything wrong with that, its a respectable job, but I don't think I could stand it. Its sort of like at the end of Saving Private Ryan when Private Ryan is looking at Tom Hanks' characters grave and he says to his wife "Tell me I have led a good life."

Faith Hill - There You'll Be Thats the Pearl Harbor theme song by the way. At first I didn't think too much of it, but I like it more and more now that I listen to it.

AUGH! I've been too busy doing stuff to write something, but I do have something to write! 3 AM and I just finished my senior will... ah well.

Shania Twain - You've Got a Way

My goodness, I actually have things to say now, but its late tonight already, but tomorrow I'll write an update for sure! And it'll actually be meaningful! For me anyways, so if you care about me, then you can read my "meaningful" post.

Backstreet Boys - I'll Never Break Your Heart (acapella)

Haha! BlogSpot is finally back up! I'll write another update tonight, I've got to go to Hot Import Nights right now.

Utada Hikaru - First Love (live)

I was scolded by my parents tonight for more than 1 hour about nothing really, just "You're not trying hard enough at school" and "You need to learn how to study correctly" and "College is very different and you need to make sure you don't get into trouble" and just a lot of stuff like that. Most of it was just me and them arguing about everything, but its very complicated to explain. But that isn't really my point that I'm trying to get to, the point that I'm trying to make is this: I know I myself am pretty darn lazy and is it because I'm just a lazy person because I'm able to choose and I just choose to be lazy because I am? Or is it because I was raised this way and I am lazy? I realize that this is all the nature vs. nurture thing that I discussed in psychology class, but I only bring it up because I find this very... interesting. Okay, perhaps not interesting, but an important topic because is it the parents fault when a child doesn't succeed? I'm not suggesting that I should blame my parents for my shortcomings and/or failures, but, are they to take at least a bit of blame? Or is it all me and regardless of what they did I would be lazy?

I'm not quite sure how to word my questions on this topic because there are just so many bases that need to be covered. As far as I'm concerned, my parents definately tried their best to raise me correctly and look how I turned out... I would never tell them flat out that I think its their fault that I'm this way because I don't know if it is or not first of all, and second, I don't think I could ever tell them something like that anyways. Oh well... whatever, whats done is done I suppose. Maybe if you asked me I'd explain sometime, but not here on my blogger, this stuff is something a bit too personal and I'd prefer it not be out in the public, not that there are all that many people reading this...

As far as regular "news" about me goes, today I started to write a list of people who I might and definately will leave things for in my senior will as well as what I'm leaving them. So if anyone's that desperate to have something and actually reads this... email me or IM me and maaaybe, just maaaybe you'll get something ;)

Boyz II Men - I Will Get There

Sorry for the lack of updates the last few days, well, lack of real updates the last few days. On Friday night my back ached and I don't know why, but I was feeling queasy and uncomfortable for a good portion of the day and I took Tylenol, as a matter of fact, I took over the recommended amount of Tylenol in a 24 hour period! Oooh! Ahhh! So that went away when I woke up Saturday morning, after sleeing early on Friday, like I posted, but on Saturday morning when I woke up, my back didn't hurt no more, but my head "hurt like a b*tch!" as you can see from my previous post. It was a seriously bad headache, and it just continued throughout the entire day, I don't know why.

But thankfully today, I woke up, after taking a crapload of Tylenol again the previous day, this morning I was feeling fresh as rain, or good as new, or some other phrase like that. This morning I got up and out of bed so I could go to "Masquerade Club's Annual Banquet" as the invitation states. It was at the local Macaroni Grill. The food there was good, as usual. Although this time, my "Farfalle al Sugo Blanco" was in a much smaller portion than I had expected for the $13.50 that I paid, oh well, as long as I get a job soon, money shouldn't be too much of a problem for me. I then hopped on over to Best Buy and picked myself up some new CD's, with the $50 bucks that one of my grandparents friends gave me for "graduating" in one of those Chinese red envelopes. I know, saying "red envelopes" in English seems odd to me, but I don't really know how to write it in Chinese on paper, much less on a computer.

I picked up 2 CD's actually, because I had a 10% off coupon that I found, and it expired today, so I just had to use it. I got myself the Sash! - Life Goes On album, which is just a bunch of techno-ish music, but I like it. I don't particularly hate techno/trance-y rave music, and no offense to anyone if I just mis-categorized your music, and as a matter of fact, I'm starting to get into this whole trance-y/techno thing, but most of the rave music sucks unless theres vocals! I don't dance really well, so I have to have vocals with my rave music ;) or else its just a lot of bass... which I suppose isn't bad either. I also got A New Found Glory - From the Screen to Your Stereo EP. I normally wouldn't have bought this, but aNFG was pretty good with that "Hit or Miss" single and this EP was only 4.99 at Best Buy minus the extra 10% so I just had to have it. The CD itself is only decent, but I can't complain at $4.99.

This afternoon I also happened to watch WWF Judgment Day Pay Per View at the National Sports Bar & Grill. Might I add, that place's food ain't that great. But I can't complain, I probably just ordered the wrong item. Anyways, I told myself when I started to write this blogger that I'd try to refrain from just listing the things that I did during the day, especially school days where it would be mostly "went to 1st period, then second, etc." but thats pretty much what I did this time. Oh well, I'll try to make up next time by posting something thought-provoking and interesting.

John Williams - Welcome to Jurassic Park This is from the JP soundtrack and I happen to like "movie music" in addition to everything else ;)

MY FVCKING HEAD HURTS LIKE A B*TCH! ARGHHHHHHHHH!

Marvelous 3 - You're So Yesterday

Wow, I'm sleeping so early for a Friday night... Its only 1am. But mostly because my back aches and I have a headache too... I haven't been feeling well all day. I watched Shrek today, its a good movie! I liked it quite a bit! Well, its off to bed for me...

Semisonic - Closing Time (Acoustic)

You know, in my 17 years of life I'm only now beginning to understand things. And in specific, I'm starting to see things about myself that I wish I were. For example, I wish I were a meaner person. Not that I want to be mean to anyone and hurt peoples' feelings or anything of that sort, but I wish I were able to hold grudges. Sometimes people piss me off, and I don't really go ballistic or anything, but I'll try to say things to them to show how pissed I am, stuff like that, but I can never hold a grudge, not even for a few hours. Once the moment has passed and I start talking to the person, and not in a "pissy mood" I can't stay mad, no matter how hard I try. Its really odd, I wish I could hold a grudge because... well I'm not sure why, but I just do. Perhaps its because I don't want to think of myself as an irrational person in heated moments. If I could hold a grudge, for me it would mean that my decision, concious or not, to be enraged at someone was pretty justified. I'm probably not making sense again.

Neve - Its Over Now

DISCLAIMER: I'm really stupid and my mind works in stupid ways, and this is me, to quote a certain junior, "...at the height of my stupidness..." By the way, I just threw that in to see if anyone reads this and someone else's profile. Just testing out my limited audience ;) End DISCLAIMER

I was walking home from the gym at CPE and as I walked out the door of the pool/gym a leaf hit my arm. And before you start thinking, "Oh goodness he's stupid, he's talking about leaves now." I say to you doubters: What don't you just wait until I hear what I have to say? But of course I say that as though you were interested in finding out more about me, but its probably not the case, so I suppose I am dumb. But at any rate, I started thinking like this, and by the way, each number is a continued thought from the previous, and thats how you can see how my stupid mind works. I cut out a few to save you people from having to read it, assuming you take time out to do so. And don't worry this has a point at the end... and I suppose you could stop reading, but then you won't know whats going on, right? So here goes:

1) What is the probability of a leaf hitting me after falling off the branch of a tree?
2) How many times in my life have I been hit by a leaf falling of a branch?
3) What is the likelyhood of being hit by a leaf?
4) How many times in one's life would you get hit by a leaf, on average?
5) With enough manpower and time you could calculate this...
6) You'd just have to have enough people to survey/watch a bunch of people walk and see where (indoors, outdoors, near trees, etc.) and when (seasonal, environment around them, etc.)
7) Then you'd need a bunch of people to just observe trees all around the world and see how much and when trees have leaves come off, and average that with some fancy smancy math I coudn't possibly do...
8) Well I thought some more about that and I realized:
9) With enough manpower, time, and money, of course, you could figure out the probability of anything.
10) I then tried to disprove my own theory but I couldn't, even with completely random things, you could figure out the probability, perhaps not a pattern, but probability.

I continued to think along those lines, and then this thought popped into my mind:

11) Whenever I'm alone, and not doing anything, like when I'm walking home from school unaccompanied by anyone, or walking home from the gym, like today, or even when I'm showering, stuff like that, a good majority of the time I'm thinking to myself, but its more of an internal dialogue, or monologue as the case may be.
12) And then I thought, maybe I'm crazy, but I'm not, because I wasn't actually talking to myself, I realized I was actually talking, or at least pretending to talk to someone, like I do in my blogger!

My final thought, before I stepped into my house, and those thoughts occured in a timeframe of less than 5 minutes by the way, was:

13) If someone were to record the thoughts that I have when I'm "thinking" and put it down on paper, or on a website such as this, it would just be a blogger, with a few more grammatical errors of course.

Yes yes, I'm very sorry for dissapointing you like that, but did I not put a disclaimer? So if you were disappointed by this anticlimax of an ending, then... technically, its your fault. Muahahahahaha!

Los Del Mar - Macarena! Hell yes! This song kicks butt!

Wow, this whole blogger thing is really catching on here at Whitney. Well, okay, to be fair its mostly just a select few people who are making bloggers, such as this one here: http://www.dolphins.blogspot.com/. If you read onto today's posts on that site you'll notice a mention about Blorgy(tm). Well, that certainly sounds interesting, I'll keep you guys updated.

As you can see I'm trying to make this little site a little better with the links on the side and what not, but I'm still trying to figure out HTML. You see, I'm not much of an HTML/programming/coding kind of computer geek. I'm more of a hardware geek. I like to "overclock" my computer and "overclock" my video card and read reviews about computer hardware on sites like this. Yes yes, I do have tons of free time on my hands! Well, most of you probably already know my AIM screenname, but there it is on the left, as is my email. So hit me up with some feedback. I'll try to expand this site a bit more, maybe put up a counter. If I ever get enough readers I might actually take time out to learn stuff for this instead of just using my basic HTML knowledge and blogger to write this stuff. Anyways, thanks for reading, whoever's out there.

Shaquille O'Neal f/ Peter Gunz - Twism

Ackkkkkkkk! AP Civics test tomorrow morning! I'm probably going to fail that just like I bombed on my AP Spanish. Oh well, doesn't much matter now I suppose. I found another blogger oddly enough, and it seems to follow my own format a bit :P Well, mostly just the mp3 at the end of the post... Its actually someone I know, but I won't point no fingers as to who's copying who. ;) At any rate, I should go to sleep now so I won't fall asleep during the Civics test. But a quick update on things going on with me. I need a job! How about giving me a job!? I'm looking for employment for the summer at the moment, and I'm thinking the movie theatre, or maybe Blockbuster, any other suggestions?

Jennifer Lopez - Play

Hm, I haven't updated for a day... doh! That post under this one was actually written on the day it says, but it wasn't posted until the same time as this post because Blogger was being stupid when I wrote that last one, not that anyone really cares that much I know.

Happy Mother's Day to any mothers who may read this site for some really really odd reason. Today I didn't do much for my mother... sadly. Well, the whole family, uncles, aunts, cousins and grandparents, not just my mom and dad, went out to eat together which wasn't that bad but I don't know, maybe its just me, but I find it very odd to talk to my parents about anything emotional. I mean I can talk to them about the Mavericks beating down the Spurs, yes yes, thats right, the Mavs beat down them sorry Spurs! And I can talk to them about the news, world events, but as long as its about myself... HA! I'd be hard-pressed to say anything about myself to them. I don't know why. And of course I know that this isn't just me, because since everyone (nearly) that I goto school with is asian, and they agree that, at least in chinese families, either the parents don't have deep meaningful thoughts, and they only think of "work work, cook, schoolwork, punish children" or they don't speak about it much. I think its because my parents didn't talk to me much during my first few years about important meaningful things, that now I don't talk to them. But of course we now would have to get into the whole argument regarding nature vs. nurture, etc. And I don't want to, at least not on my blogger. So I'll leave you with that note, more tomorrow if I take a break from studying for my AP Civics test.

Sash! - Mysterious Times

I just got home from Norwalk High School for my UC Subject A Exam. What a waste of time and money that was. You know, I realize that UC's have to keep a certain degree of student in thier system, but did they really need the ETS to administer the exam? I mean give me a freakin' break, the ETS, a "non-profit organization" might I add, makes me pay $55 for that lousy test... But I won't get into that now, stupid ETS, I'm sure you've already heard all the arguments anyways. I'll post more later, I've got to watch Dallas Mavs kick some Spurs azz.

Linkin Park - Crawling

WooHoo! I got the archives to work with the help of my cousin. So for those of you who have absolutely nothing better to do, you can go through the archives and read about me, read lots of stuff about me. Today was an unaverage type of day for me. I woke up for school some 30 minutes late (8:30am) because I hadn't set my alarm clock back 1 hour from the previous school day on which we had a "Late Start Day" so I missed first period, which wasn't that bad considering we haven't done much in that class of late. Then during the day, due to the AP testing we have at our school this week, I don't really have a fourth period class, so what I did was wander around school. I did this and that, visited classrooms and what not... but then I went to my locker to pick up a book. Prior to this, I'm betting the last time that I opened my locker was more than 2 or 3 days at least. But when I opened it today, there was a giant Santa Claus costumed Teddy Bear. And of course I'm very confused now. I left it in there... and I speculated about what it could be.

1) Someone meant to give it to someone else but put it in my locker on accident.
2) Someone likes me, left the bear there, but forgot to leave a note... eh... not likely.
3) Someone's smuggling drugs into the school and figured a good place to hide drugs would be in a locker that is checked very infrequently.

Well, there are an infinite number of posibilites and I won't speculate them all of course. As of now, I decided to keep the bear in there, and I unjammed the lock on my locker so whoever left it there will have to know my combination to get it back... Well, that was pretty much it as far as "unaverage" days go. Just a reminder for those of you, the bold words at the end of every post is a song that either I recommend, or I just happen to be listening to while typing this up.

Frankie Lymon & The Teenagers - Why Do Fools Fall In Love

Hmm, my writing blogger has resulted in others following my wonderful example! :) Here are the few that I've found so far:

Angelo's Thoughts is a nice site... too unorganized IMHO ;)
The Id, Ego and SuperHumungousEgo of the Nash nice site too, but only one post so far...
Just Ty's 2 cents about Life is my cousin's site... the best of the three... but of course I'm quite biased in that matter.

Case & Joe - Faded Pictures

Oookay... well that was one hard AP Spanish test! I went into the test quite positive and feeling good about myself, but... well... not any more. After doing that reading comprehension type thing, well, no more! I think I did decent on the speaking and the writing, but that multiple choice just screwed me over! Woo Hoo! There $77 down the drain! I could've spent that on hookers or something ;). Nah, I probably would've just squandered it on something stupid anyways. So that would be one AP down and one left to go! There are a lot of things about high school I'll miss, but AP tests is certainly not one of them.

This blogger isn't really that time consuming to write as some may think and have voiced to me. What really gets to me is the fact that I hardly ever have anything to write about. But I have to go eat dinner now, so I'll write this later tonight.

IMx - Stay The Night

AAAAAAHHHHHHH! My AP Spanish test is tomorrow... today, whatever. I tried to study today too, the same way I studied this weekend. I opened up my Amsco book and I read the words, but they just weren't sticking in my brain. It was like my eyes were passing over the words, but my brain wasn't really registering them. This is a result of me either being lazy or having a short attention span, probably a combination of both. But on a positive note, I did study for AP Civics during the weekend.

It has been brought to my attention that my blogger makes me seem boring and someone else pointed out that I have too much time on my hands to write my blogger. Well you know what I say to you people? I must be awful important to you in order for you to take time out of your exciting, event-filled, busy busy day to read this. That is all, so it is written, so it shall be done.

John Coltrane - After the Rain

Okay... I was going to write about why I watch movies, but I'm too tired now, so I'll write it up tomorrow, or Tuesday, since tomorrow I'll be studying for my AP Spanish test. At least trying/faking studying for it. But I'll write this today: Lakers, Mavs, Philly, and Bucks in the next round. And Charles Barkley is cool. I don't get cable at my house, but I goto the gym at CPE to workout and watch the NBA games during the work week and he's a funny guy. He used to be my favorite basketball player, and he still is! Oh, and on the topic of basketball, where is Bob Costas? I want him back! Marv Albert is good, but wheres Bob!? What about Bob!?

The Offspring - The Meaning of Life

With AP tests coming up next week, you know what I did today? I went to go watch The Mummy Returns at the UA Galaxy Theatres in the mall. I must say, this movie was very good, especially since its a sequel. When I first saw the previews for this and saw that there was a "cute little boy" I thought to myself, oh my, he's going to be the worst thing in the movie... but no no! Not true! He was quite good as a matter of fact and he did a good job acting. He was almost never annoying, unlike a certain Jake Lloyd in a certain Star Wars movie and he was well cast. I would recommend this movie to just about any one, theres good action, some decent comedy, and its just 2 hours of good fun. I do have a few gripes about the movie though... the CG that they used was a bit extensive and at parts the CG got weak. The CG work seemed rushed and unpolished, especially towards the ending of the movie and it did take a bit away from the movie, but, the movie didn't rely on the CG so much that the movie as a whole was weakened by the less than stellar CG work. Go watch it! Everyone else is! :)

Since I'm talking about movies anyways, I'd like to recommend another movie that I watched during this week, after I went to Magic Mountain might I add, One Night at McCool's. This movie was very funny and also, another good 2 hours of entertainment. This is of course a "guy's movie" with the Liv Tyler washing cars, Liv Tyler wearing mini-skirts, and well... just Liv Tyler. But as long as the girl you choose to go with isn't too... how should I put this... as long as she isn't too conservative, you should be good. The movie was very funny, and very well written IMHO. The only complaint I have about that movie is the fact that the movie trailer / tv ads revealed a bit too much for me and I was able to foresee a few things coming. But overall, very well acted, very well written... just very well. Tomorrow I'll write something about movies, well... not about movies, but about why I watch some movies and what not... its complicated, I'll explain tomorrow if I feel like typing it out. Until then...

New Order - Bizzare Love Triange

Hmm... well today I didn't do too many productive things, like I predicted about myself. Well, to be fair I did vacuum the house and do some other various chores around the house, but as far as doing anything that I wanted to do to be productive for myself, like "living life" and all that, then I didn't do anything "productive." You know what I was thinking about today? (One of the many things I think about) I was thinking about how big a loser I am. Now don't everyone get up and tell me I'm not, because I know I am. And not just in that whole "high school heirarchy" becuase that will be a moot point in a mere 2 months, but just me as a person, in general. I know I sound like a depressed guy right now, but trust me on this, I'm pretty much over that now, and I'm in this inbetween thing... I'm not sure how to explain it. But thats not what I want to talk about anyways. What I want to talk about is why would any girl want to date me and on a grander scale, marry me. Since I don't have any female readers, and the only people I know of who read this are family, some guys and... sadly, Nash, who probably has nothing better to do with his time, its quite obvious I'm not looking for pity dates here.

Any girl should be able to do better than me. If a girl is willing to go out with me, not that I've ever been on a "real" date or anything, but if the situation were to arise, there must be some sort of catch, because a girl has to be able to find someone funnier, smarter, wittier, etc. than me. I, along with most people, have to face the facts, there is always someone better. I realize that these thoughts aren't quite as articulated as one would like them to be, but screw you, you're reading this and you'll like what I tell you to like! ;) But seriously, I don't understand this concept, if you're not the best, or even really good at what you do, does that make you a failure? No... that can't possibly be true becuase 99% of the people on this planet would be "failures." Argh, I can't quite express what I'm trying to say right now... I'm tired, and my back is sore because I slept on it funny yesterday. Blah, I don't want to go to school tomorrow. Not that I don't want to go to see the people, but I don't want to go to class, stupid stupid class.

Ayumi Hamasaki - Whatever (Ferry Corsten Remix)

Well, that stupid archives thing still doesn't work, still can't figure it out... maybe I'm just stupid. Today at my high school it was another STAR testing day and I didn't even have to attend school. Those stupid standardized tests for the state don't apply to seniors thank God. So instead of going to class like a good little boy, I went to Six Flags Magic Mountain with some friends. So I'm sure as you can guess, it was great fun. I rode that new ride Goliath and I must say, I expceted more from it. It was definately fun, don't get me wrong, just not as fun as I had anticipated. There was a part of the ride where the force was so great pushing on my head (I don't know what this is called since I sucked at Physics) that I either closed my eyes or I blacked out for a few seconds, but I'm betting it was the first one.

At Magic Mountain today, I won 2 stuffed animals, a small Kermit the Frog and this monkey with velcro hands... The girls whom I went with wanted the animals but I didn't give in, instead I paid for them to play the game on thier own. Its my contention that they can win their own darn prizes ;) Unless I had a crush on them I guess... But that wasn't the case here so no can do, I like my stuffed animals thank you very much. Today I also went into a real photo booth for the first time. I took pictures and there were 5 of us crammed into the booth so in all 4 of the pictures I didn't show up at all... So much for my first time. Well actually I have done the photo booth thing before in San Diego on the beach, but the picture wasn't in a strip, it was just a lousy old polaroid that was split up into 4 parts... what a rip-off, eh? Maybe next time I go into a photo booth I can be with a cute girl and... well you know how it goes. Heh, yeah right.

In other news about myself I got myself new computer speakers! I'm quite proud of them actually. I got them for a good deal online, they have 4 satellites and a sub-woofer. They kick ass. Listening to music with the sub-woofer is much more fun, and playing Counter-Strike, well thats just something else completely. I can actually tell which direction people are walking from instead of just left or right, I can tell if its front or back now! Woo Hoo! That may sound sarcastic, but trust me, its genuine joy. Tomorrow is yet another day where school attendance is less than important, so I won't be going to school, but I will be going to sleep now... so fare thee well.

Westlife - More Than Words

Argh, I've been trying to get this stupid archives link to work, but as of right now my brain isn't even thinking correctly. Do you know when your brain is like half asleep but you push your body on? Its sort of like that. Its that feeling where if I were to put my head down I'd be asleep in less than 1 minute, y'know? Anyways, today I found out that I had more readers than I thought I did, which is why I feel almost obligated to get this archives thing working. Maybe I'll even put a counter on here :)

Today, while I was wasting time mulling around school, I thought about some things, but I'll talk about them later. I've got to go to bed, like I said before, and take a shower first. Yep, I take showers at night. I know some people who take showers in the morning, and my question to them is of course, why? I feel dirty and grimy when I goto bed without showering. I feel like I'm getting all of the dust, sweat, whatever, onto my blankets and stuff when I sleep without showering. (Unless I'm really tired of course, in which case, exceptions must be made.) Well, enough of that, good night.

Martina McBride - Valentine

Well... Prom was really really fun. I can't begin to describe the emotions I have regarding it, there are happy and sad ones. But a quick description of what went down. I went to a friend's house to meet my date, but it turned out that she wans't there, neither was her friend, and the friend's mother had absolutely no idea what was going on. At any rate, I had a chat with the mother and then found my date and friends. My date and everyone else looked really nice :) Well, we went to Cheesecake Factory in Redondo Beach, and we arrived 1 hour late, partially because of those darned traffic lights, which were sometimes red and *gasp* other times they were green! Okay, well that was an inside joke, but anyways...

Cheesecake Factory was crowded, but the food wasn't too bad. My pasta, "Evelyn's Favorite Pasta" or something like that, wasn't too good. The broccoli was huge and I kept thinking to myself, if this is her favorite pasta, whats her least favorite? Ugh, bad thoughts. I shelled out $40 bucks for dinner there and someone else also paid another $20 and somehow we ended up short money on the bill still... long story, I don't understand it still, but oh well, it wasn't my money. We then went to Long Beach Aquarium for prom. Let me say this now, this place was niiiiice. I only have one problem with the site... well two actually, but they were mostly stupid complaints. One was the fact that I never saw the magician that was supposedly there, and there were no poker tables. Yes, yes, I realize that I shouldn't complain since prom is more about dancing and friends... but... but... POKER! :) The site was really nice, like I said, lots of stuff to do, and the whole experience was just lots of fun. I made a buttload of money gambling, thanks to the dice rolling of a certain person, who I'll be going to Vegas with in the future hopefully :).

Afterwards it was pretty calm, just some eating, some chatting, and some giggling over some weird things going on with a certain person who fell asleep, ask me if you really want to know... it was really really weird, I can't wait for my pictures to get developed. These seem to be all happy thoughts, no? Yes, they are. But thats exactly what's sad about it. I will never be able to go back to Prom! Never again! Well unless someone asks me when I'm in college I suppose, but other than that scenario, I won't ever be going back to prom! I suppose thats a good thing for some since it means that they're leaving high school. But this is all back to the whole I'm not ready to leave yet thing and I won't get into that right now, again. More later, have a nice day.

Fastball - Out of My Head

*Sigh* Prom is over. It was mucho fun. But I'm tired, I'll detail tomorrow. Good night, morning, whatever......zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

Van Morrison - I'll Be Your Lover, Too

PROM IS TOMORROW! AHHHHH! Here's some pictures of the site. I need sleep, I'll write tomorrow, maybe before prom :)

Blondie - One Way or Another

Argh, I'm getting lazy and not updating, but at least I have stuff to say :). Well last night I was watching Leno and you know who was on? Aaron Carter. Now prior to this episode of the Tonight Show I'd never seen or heard the younger version of BSB Nick Carter. Now I'm secure enough in my masculinity to admit that I somewhat enjoy this whole "Teenie-Bopper" music thing. Despite the fact that a good majority of these stars and boy bands are manufactured stars, I'm quite sure that they do possess some assemblance of talent. Both *NSync and BSB can sing and for the most part, they can dance, so I won't knock their act. And then of course there's Britney Spears and her kind. Well.. what can I say? She's Britney Spears. She makes me want to drink Pepsi!

But anyways, I digress, back to Aaron Carter, I only caught maybe the last 2 minutes of his song and I won't be blunt about it, it was perhaps the worst "music" I've ever heard, and accompanied with that dance... It shouldn't even exist on the face of this earth. First of all, this man, no wait, this boy, this 13 year old boy is accompanied by dancers, both male and female, who look like they are 17, 18 years old and forced to act like they are 13. But I figure, thats okay, they probably couldn't find some 13 year old dancers to accompany Aaron. But then I hear the lyrics that he is singing. His song is about a dream in which he does these crazy things, most notably "packing Shaq" if I remember the exact line. Now this boy, he dresses and attmepts to sing as though he's rapping/singing and tries to act as black as possible. His dancers were even black too if I remember correcetly. At any rate, when he finished up his song he sat down with Jay Leno and started talking, and do you know how he talked? BLACK! Yes, I realize that I'm stereotyping, but it is a widely accepted fact that each culture and nationality has certain distinctions about them, and speaking "gangsta" or "black" is a cultural identity of sorts. Aaron Carter spoke with a "gangsta" accent! This white boy, from God know's where, speaks with a "gangsta" accent. What is this? At first I thought perhaps it was only the song that would be crappy and have this whiteboy "gangsta" overtone, and that his producers forced this upon him, but... he talks normally like this too! Bah, oh well, I'm probably just bitter that this less than deserving 13 year old boy gets to act "gangsta" and make money while I get to idle around high school doing a lot of nothing.

But enough about other people, and more about me! I got my tuxedo fitted and what not on Monday from Formal Notice. Its a double breasted tux! I don't know whats this whole anti-double breasted tux thing. Is it the name/description? I don't get it... I think that double breasted tuxedos look just as good if not better than normal tuxes. Also, regarding prom, today at school the juniors decided that since they hadn't sold enough prom bids that Sophmores would be allowed to attend the prom as well... And I must say, I'm definately trying to stay positive about this whole prom thing, but... it just keeps going barreling downhill. First, the prom date is this week, a good 2-3 weeks earlier than usual at least, second, a good majority of seniors wouldn't go, and then I had some personal problems that I won't go into with asking girls, and now this. But I'm still staying positive because its better than being negative about everything.

Well, that was enough writing for one night, I'm off to bed, tomorrow is another day.

Utada Hikaru - Sukiyaki (Live)

Okay, well this is my first post for a few days because I just got back from UCSC and its a fairly nice college. At first I was unsure as to whether or not I'd be willing to go to Santa Cruz because I've grown up in a suburban environment all my life and UCSC is in the middle of a forest. But the tour and "open house" they had convinced me. They have access to San Francisco and what not and while I'm sure I won't go to 'Frisco every week but knowing that I have that option is quite nice. The school itself is in a nice setting, and the people there seem nice at least. But I do have some complaints, although these complaints are hardly reasons not to attend UCSC. First of all, the radio station selection there sucks, at least from what I heard while there, its pretty crappy. Second, the girls that I saw aren't really "lookers" if you catch my drift. In the winter I bet it'll be really freaking cold. And last but not least, as of now, nobody that I know of is going to UCSC.

Anyways, here's something that I came upon in my internet browsing. Its about some people suing the media, and mostly video game makers, for damages regarding Columbine. You know what I say? Give me a freaking break. These people claim that the video game industry needs to regulate itself, and since it can't, they need the government/judicial system to step in and do it for them. They also claim that money isn't the biggest thing here, then WTF is the $5 billion lawsuit for? Why ask for that number? And I also think that these people are crazy because they need to realize that "Guns (or video games in this case) don't kill people. People kill people." They need to stop looking to blame others, and realize that the responsibility should fall on the parents to regulate what their children do, and what games they play, etc. It all comes down to the parenting.

I'm tired, and I've still got to study for a 1984 test in English tomorrow... blah!

Beach Boys - Kokomo